The Glow (A Klaine AU) *in progress*

Chapter Two: Where Do We Go From Here?

  "So... you got it?! Oh my gosh, this is amazing, Kurt! Why are you so on edge over this?" Rachel squealed happily through the phone, her loud celebratory voice threatening to bash in my eardrums. I sat on the cold hardwood floor of my dorm, phone in one hand and math notebook in the other.

"I'm terrified, Rachel. The guy I got it with... he has a boyfriend and I don't even know him and... people are starting rumors, Rach." I muttered, ignoring a knock at the door. It was probably the boy from yesterday. Not in the mood.

"Oh... still, Kurt, this is wonderful! You know, some people never even get it! Please, find some good in this!" Find some good? How? I frowned as the knocking became louder.

"Hey, Rachel, I need to go. Call me later and wish me luck," I said tiredly, my stomach turning nervously. I couldn't do this... I couldn't. I flung open the door, relief clutching at my chest as I realized it was only my roommate, Hunter.

"Um.. hi. Heard about your situation earlier. Crazy, really. Sorry everyone's being weird about it." He remarked casually, passing me and throwing his things on his bed.

"Yeah, it's fine. I'm going to the library." I mumbled, pushing open the door and stalking away to the one place I could get any relief from life.

The library was mainly empty, and I sat down at a seat by the window. Students sat scattered around the room, some reading and others scrolling through their phones. I stared out the window, letting serene sunlight wash over me, and for a moment, I forgot about this whole problem, until...

"We need to talk," a quiet but self-assured voice spoke out of the shadows, lulling me from my peaceful daydream. I looked up, and felt the same sweeping sensation I felt the day before. A blaze of golden fire darted above my head before going out, and I saw a streak of cerulean light from above his head. I didn't even know his name, but this connection was beyond my control. I was enraptured, against my will.

"What?" I whispered, watching as the boy stepped closer, seating himself across from me. I noticed right away his greenish gold eyes, the exact color of the Glow I shared with him. He gazed into my eyes, smiling softly.

"I'm Blaine. And look, I know that what's going on is crazy-" he began.

"I'm Kurt," The corners of my mouth turned up into a smile, again, against my will. This guy was cute, yes, but this whole thing was too much to deal with. I drummed my fingers on the arm of the chair I was sitting in, and Blaine opened his mouth to speak again.

"Hey, I'm sure you're scared right now, but we need to talk about this. I'm not necessarily... out, yet. Sebastian and I, well... we keep our relationship under wraps and no one has ever seen our Glow, but it's becoming weak anyway, and I.... you're my soulmate, I guess, and everyone saw. I don't know what's going to happen, but... I'm nervous, truth be told..." Blaine broke off, staring past me, out the window.

"I understand, I've just never had this with anyone, and I'm scared, I don't know what to do, quite honestly. I don't even know you, Blaine," I whispered, hands shaking.

"Okay, well, um... I, I want to get to know you, and people are starting to talk about this... God, I just don't want my parents finding out." Blaine sighed, his beautiful hazel eyes filled with frustration. I wanted more than anything to reach out and hold his hand, but something in me protested, repelling me back.

"No, no, I get it. It's fine, if you don't want to work this out. I'm fine," I mumbled, feeling myself blush. I wasn't really sure about any of this... we are meant to be, says Fate, but everything's more confusing than I'd ever imagine it being.

"Kurt, I can't explain this, but I know I want to be with you, I just need time, please, give me that." I looked up, and Blaine bit his lip, waiting for my response.

"Okay.. okay." I agreed, standing up. "I should go." With that, I walked out of the room, still too nervous and consumed with confusion to think right now. I'd been "out" for almost a year, but this whole relationship thing was leaving me asking myself: where do I go from here?
________________________________

I watched Kurt leave the room, his amazing blue eyes dark as a winter storm, our Glow dissipating and cerulean beams of light swirling around my shoulders. I wanted Kurt, I did. More than anything. I just couldn't risk my parents finding out. It would mean.. well, shame and guilt towards them, and I couldn't bear being the disappointment again. My shoulders heavy with sadness, I slumped in my chair, heart swelling with this new, unfounded feeling I hadn't felt until yesterday. This was real. Happening. I didn't want to do what I did with Sebastian; lies, hiding. But... I wondered if I was too scared to actually do this. People were already talking about this, and I couldn't take it even today. Still, seeing Kurt's eyes so heavy with doubt, it made me want to stand at his side.

"Blaine! We heard all about how you're cheating on Sebastian with New Kid! You glowed for him but not your boyfriend! Shame!" Connor Evanston crowed from across the library, making me roll my eyes.

"Right! New Kid looked so bewildered, he's just another one of your games you like playing, huh, Blaine?" His lackey, Bryan Cooper, spoke up. My lip curled in fury and I felt my fist clench. I wouldn't let these people talk down on me.

"Hey! You shut your mouths! If you tell anyone about this, or if you spread any more rumors, I will kill you both." I snarled, my fighting instinct kicking into gear.

"Sure, just remember you said that." Bryan laughed before strolling out of the room, Connor in tow. Those two had been at my throat for years, and I wouldn't let them wound my pride.

The next day, Kurt stood on the outskirts of the hallway, slumped against the wall, staring off into the distance. I walked closer to him , trying to quell the Glow that seemed to interrupt our every interaction. But... I remembered my parent's scalding remarks when I told them I hadn't gotten the Glow with a girl yet. Disappointing. Failure. Not at all like your brothers. Their voices stung, unnerving me, causing me to shrink back away from view before Kurt could see me. I was a coward, and despite what Fate said, Kurt would  never deserve me.

________________________________