Shawn Mendes imagines

1. In My Blood

Your POV

His face was glowing in the sunrise, he was so perfect. You kissed his hands then ran your fingers through his hair. Shawn's eyes lightly flutter open as you still play with his curls. "Goodmoring beautiful" he mumbled with his sexy morning voice. "Morning gorgeous" you replied as he smiled and looked into your eyes. You got up heading to the bathroom and brushing your teeth as Shawn waited for you to get done to go in.

You flipped the almost burnt pancake as Shawn came down the stairs. "Hungry?" You ask. " Starved" He states. "Good, because I'm making pancakes." You laugh. " Its good that I'm starving? " he questions. You give him a look because he knew what you meant. He just goes on to chuckle.

"Okay babe, I will be back soon I promise I'm only going into work for a few hours then I'll be back. I left you some food for later incase you get hungry and I made the bed so don't worry about that. Also I picked up some snacks yesterday if you don't want actual food and just some munchies, they are in the pantry." You say almost out of breath . "What did I do to deserve you?" Shawn says looking at you. " being yourself. " you smile then lean in to kiss him. "Okay I have to go Shawn, I love you bye." You say opening the door. "I love you more" Shawn says closing the door for you. Then he gives you a little wave as you leave.

5 hours later

"Shawn?" You questioned as you entered the house you both shared with your boyfriend of 9 months now.
As you walked to the living room you noticed he was staring at a blank TV while sitting on the floor. He looked frozen. "Shawn? Honey?" You asked again. He looked up to you with tears streaming down his face. You came to your knees caressing his face. "Babe, what's wrong. What happened?" But he just began so sob and soaked your shirt.
His hands began to shake and You knew what was wrong. He had another attack. And You weren't here for him.

You let him cry until he stopped and he began to speak. "I feel so alone. I feel like giving up but I just can't. I don't want to disappoint you." He says. " Shawn Peter Raul Mendes, if one of us is to disappoint the other that would be me. You're beyond perfect for anyone and I'm sorry you can't see that but others can. You're the best thing that has happened to me and I love you. "