just kiss already

you're a fag?

"And max started running around the principal like a madman and he got detention on the first day" we both laughed I shifted on his bed I smiled at him "well I see your first day of school was eventful" he laughed softly" he looked me in the eyes "so how was your day" I smiled which gave him hopeful eyes
"amazing" he looked relieved for a second then put on a plastic smile "what" he shook his head "I don't know I didn't think school would be your thing" I glared at him playfully"school isn't anyone's thing" he laughs "I mean the whole....talking thing" I start to laugh loudly "yeah that doesn't tend to be my thing but believe it or not I actually made friends" his eye widen "really " he squealed oh god here comes the questions "how many were there? what is they're names? what did they look like? what social class were they in? how many guys were there? whe-"I put a hand over his mouth "chill you sound like a teenage girl" I look him up and down "well it not too far of a stretch" he pushes me lightly "answer the questions" I can't ,not without outing myself maybe I should just get it over with"ty? your face got all serious for a sec you ok" ok mom I'm going to do it wish me luck I take Josh's hands and holds the serious look that developed before "josh I need to tell you something before I don't and it's really important and you might hate me for it" Josh looks at me concerned "I could never hate you" I smiles at him lets hope not I squeezed my eyes shut hope for something to delay it I wait a few seconds nothing sigh "I'm gay" I blurted out silence then"hahaha I know" I look at him shocked "its obvious ty" he laughs some more I don't understand "I'm your brother Tyler if you cant trust me who can you trust" I smile Its something mom used to say "no one" I say back he calms down and smiles at me but it turns it to a smirk he holds his chest and gasps dramatically and he bellows out "you're a fag??" he snaps out of his performance laughing "nope tried it, its not me" I laugh with him we both fall on to the bed after that next to each other he turns to me so are you going yo answer my questions I sigh and continuing to tell him everything for the rest of the day
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Were at he table eating dinner that I made for the both of us "so. You like Blake I choke on my food and shake my head "I barley know the guy" he looks at me with a sparkle in his eye don't tell me- he smiles wide "I ship you guys so hard" my mouth drops "God Damn it your turning into me"he gets up and goes to the kitchen smiling "can I have some more" I look at my food glad with the subject change "yeah just leave enough for dad he's coming home late"he yells an okay I get up and put my dishes into the sink and then got to to brush my teeth, put my backpack up and clean my room a bit by the time I was done Josh was done eating and brushing his teeth he goes in his room and lays down I go in and sit down on the side facing him "arms" he sticks them out and I look at them although he now where's short sleeves and I know he hasn't done it again I want to keep routine so he doesn't forget my love I see the old deep still bright red scar my eyes glaze over its hard to see but I look at Josh and then kiss the mark he looks at me with regret and sadness it's been a while since I looked at it this long I usually just check and say good night I put a hand on his cheek "remember" I whisper I'm referring to the promise he made at the hospital I'm referring to my need for him I don't need to lose anyone else important to me "yes and it won't change" he whispers back he smiles and I hug him I pull back fixing his hair a bit and stand up I turn off his light "don't stay up you know you have school and I'd rather you get healthy rest" I say as I'm walking out I grab the door knob "goodnight" he says quietly with a yawn I smile "goodnight little brother" I then close the door silently and walk to my own room for some rest
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Sorry it's short this is just a filler and I'm not doing so well
And no he's not Going to like his brother he's just very motherly because his mom died and his dad isn't there to help so he's a brother and a parent to Josh he's also broken himself and doesn't want Josh having a bad time