My Love (SHINee FanFiction)

Announcement

Hey guys,

I suggest you read all of this to get the full story. I sincerely trust you all.

So in my last broadcasted message, I said that an update is coming soon and that I also had a huge announcement. But as I typed that message, I felt those butterflies in my stomach and realized that I cannot wait until I finish my update for me to post my announcement.

WARNING: This might come as a shocker to all of you, and some vocabulary might make a bit of you uncomfortable.

Over the past three weeks, I made some really stupid decisions. Three weeks ago, I had a really heated argument with my boyfriend that ended up with him leaving the house and not returning for a few days. I was really worried about him and called his cell phone the day after our fight but he would not pick up. He returned after a few days with an apology, and that he loved me and I forgave him after that, since we aren't the type of couple that gets into these kind of situations very often.

A few minutes later we ended up, well, um...I can't seem to put this in a way without being blunt.

Okay, so let me put this out. My boyfriend and I ended up having sex for the first time. We were both virgins. And with my sorrow, I am also going to say that we had unprotected sex. It was all in the heat of the moment and none of us have protection or anything of the sort in our apartment. The whole thing was a blur to me, and I know that is a terrible excuse. Both of us did not notice we had unprotected sex until the next day.

My boyfriend and I had lunch together the next day and he had come to the sudden realization that we did not use any protection while having sex. We both freaked out and were really scared and worried.

The day after we found out, I picked up a urine pregnancy test on my way home from work and got a test. Fortunately, it said negative, so we were relieved for the meantime. But I felt like I did not want to take any chances. This isn't the type of situation where you can second guess the results. I scheduled a doctors appointment.

Two days later, I went to the doctor, and he suggested that I take another pregnancy test two weeks later. He said that it is not likely for me to not get pregnant or get an STD after unprotected sex.

So I told my boyfriend and we waited two weeks.

Yesterday, I had taken another urine pregnancy test. And I was horrified. Because the pregnancy test stated positive.

I honestly do not know what my feelings are right now. Of course, I had imagined having children with my boyfriend, he is the love of my life. But at my age? We aren't even married.

I don't know if you guys have noticed, but I'm only 21. I'll be starting my last year of college next month. My boyfriend has already graduated. Both of us clearly aren't ready for a child!

I went to the doctor this morning and he said that I am most likely pregnant and that I should visit a gynecologist soon.

I don't plan on considering abortion because I've always thought that the idea of killing a baby that's inside of you is definitely wrong. So, I'm keeping my child.

Guys...I'm so scared. I know that a lot of my followers and viewers are younger than me so I don't expect you guys to be able to relate to a pregnancy issue.

But although as nervous, scared, and worried my boyfriend and I are, it feels a little magical to know that you're carrying a soon-to-be living being inside of you. The thought of that really takes my breath away.

I have not yet told my and his parents, and they are most definitely going to be shocked. I hope that this situation does not tear any of our relationships apart.

But mostly, I made this post to let you guys know that with this situation, I might not update for a while. After a few months, I'll be too busy to focus on my fanfiction. And when I give birth, I don't even know if I will come back at all. And I'm just so, so, so sorry about all of this. This is all my fault and I feel so bad about how I screwed up everything for you guys.

Well, I have to head off to the grocery store, but I will be back online in a bit if you guys have any questions.

I hope you all understand. I love every single one of you guys, and I trust all of you. I hope you all continue to support me, this fanfic, my boyfriend, and my child.

Your unnie,

Hanuel