All I Want is You

Fate isn't real

"So Zen, tell me about Ivan." tinaasan ko siya ng kilay habang kumakain siya.Srsly, do I really have to do this? Ano bang pakielam nito samin ni Ivan.

"Di mo na kailangan pang malaman." I said while looking at my food.

"Oh, bat di ka kumakain?" napansin niya na sigurong tinititigan ko lang pagkain ko. Eh ayaw ko naman kasi talagang kumain. Duh. Di kami close. "Kain ka na. Wag mo naman sana sayangin yung food. I know we're not close but you have to eat " -,- Nababasa niya ba nasa isip ko?

"Fine." sabi ko na lang. Actually, kanina ko pa talaga gustong kumain. Duh. It's lasagna. Favorite ko kaya to.

After a long silence, bigla siyang nagsalita.

"How come na iniwan ka ni Ivan ng ganun ganun lang?" then I caught him staring at me.

"Don't stare. It's rude." I told him. It's kinda awkward for me kasi para akong malulusaw sa tingin niya. The way he look is so sweet. Ngayon ko lang napansin na may dimples pala siya. His hair was a bit with a touch of messy look and it's perfect on him. It has tiny loose curls on its end. Ugh. Can I have a crush on him? I can't help but adore his pretty face.

"Sagutin mo na lang tanong ko." nakatitig pa rin siya sakin.

Bigla akong napaisip sa tanong niya. Bakit nga ba niya ko iniwan? Wala naman kaming problema. Everything was perfectly fine between us before. Kaya siguro mahirap tanggapin para sakin kasi walang dahilan kung bakit niya ko pinagpalit kay Mandy.

"I- I don't know." Di ko alam kung ano ung mali sakin. I've given almost all my time and effort to him. Hindi naman ako masyadong possessive.

"He's a jerk." natawa ako sa nasabi niya. Kyel knew he was a jerk. Right.

"You don't even know him to say he's a jerk. But... you're damn right about that." I was laughing when I said that.

Tumitig nanaman siya sakin. Napatitig tuloy ako sa kanya. I didn't know he has brown eyes.

"Stop staring." then I looked away. Nakakalusaw naman kasi tingin niya sakin

"Wag  mong piliting maging okay kung hindi mo pa kaya." I looked at him again pero hindi na siya nakatingin sakin.

Pinipilit ko ba? How did he know?

"Ha?"

"Wag mo nang itago. He must really own a big part of you." Actually, he's right. Kahit one year pa lang kami, parang buong  buhay ko na siyang nakasama. Kahit nga parents ko, tinuring na siyang kapamilya. I had the best time of my life with him. Hindi ko talaga inakalang sa ganung paraan kami magtatapos. How can he do that to me? Alam niyang mahal na mahal ko siya pero he left me hanging around.

"L-let's just not talk about him."

"Okay." napatahimik nalang siya. Napansin niya siguro na namumuo na ung luha ko."Di ko lang kasi talaga maintindihan kung pano niya nagawa yun. He's stupid." Kanina, jerk lang. Stupid naman na ngayon. Okay. Ivan is a stupid jerk.

"

Maya-maya lang, natapos na kaming kumain.

"Hmm. May pupuntahan ka ba after nito?" he asked.

"Wala na. I'm heading home this afternoon."

"Oh. Okay."

"About last night Kyel, sana kalimutan na natin ung mga napagusapan natin." I told him.

"In one condition." there he goes again. Nakatitig nanaman sakin.

"You must really stop that staring thingy. What condition anyway?"

"You won't talk about him anymore." Srsly, bakit ko kailangan gawin ug sinasabi niya?

"Whatever. I'll go ahead na. Thanks sa sapilitang lunch treat mo sa kin. Haha. Bye." I was ready to go na sana pero bigla siyang nagsalita.

"Hey! Wala pa akong number mo Zen." he exclaimed.

I just looked at him. Should I give him? Hmmm.

"Nevermind. I can feel that fate will make a way for us to meet again." he said then winked at me.

Di na ko sumagot sa kanya.

Fate, huh? Really? Does it even exist? I smiled a little. I can still remember how Ivan used to talk about fate. 'Fate is the reason why we are  together in love.' He always tell me that.

I don't actually beleive that. Fate doesn't exist. But if fate is real, guess I could say that 'Fate is the reason why we broke up.'