As we arrived at the company I wiped my tears again. We all got out of the car, I wore my hoodie, covering my eyes. I walked into the company, following my brother's steps. I didn't pay much attention since my mind was full of Jaemin. As I was walking I bumped into someone, I wiped my tears again, still looking down at my feet.
"Sorry, I should've told you that we're here," a low voice said, it wasn't Haechan's voice. I looked up to see that guy again.
"Sorry," I said as I walked into Haechan's dorm. After I walked in I closed the door, I walked over to the couch. I looked around the room to see if anyone was inside, I didn't want to cry in front of people.
I let out my tears and cried; loudly. I covered my face with my hands, as tears filled my hands.
"Am I not good enough? Am I useless to him now? Am I not pretty anymore? Am I ugly now?" I said as I wiped my tears and looked straight at the piano. As I got up, I wiped my tears and walked over to the piano.
I sat down in front of the piano as I wiped my tears again. I placed my fingers on the keys and started playing. The only thing that makes me feel better is playing the piano. As I played I smiled, I loved this. After playing for three minutes I rest my fingers on the keys and sighed.
"You can play the piano, that's amazing," a voice was heard behind me, I turned around to see that guy again.
"I wanted to be left alone you know," I said as I wiped my watery eyes.
"I'm sorry about that, you're brother is really worried, you know that right?" He said which made me looked down, staring at my feet.
"Yeah, I know. He cares a lot about me, unlike some people," I said as I looked up at him. I jumped a bit since he's now right in front of me.
"You seemed quite upset during the car ride, do you want to talk about it?" He asked as he crouched in front of me.
"Yeah... but promise me that you won't tell Haechan about this, please.." I said as he nodded, I smiled. "My boyfriend Jaemin, he's been seeing someone. He's been ignoring me all day, it hurts you know, and the fact that when I walked up to him he gave me a disgusting look and told me to leave him alone. I get that he's one of the popular kids, but why does he have to treat me like fucking shit.." I said as he stared at me in disbelief.
"Well, you don't need him," he said as I just sat there. I can't leave him, he means so much to me and I don't want to lose him. "You deserve someone better that can treat you right with respect," I don't want to leave him but he's right.
"This isn't your concern, just leave me alone," I said as I got up and walked towards the door.
"Wait, I'm sorry if I said something wrong I didn't mean to say anything that would offend you," he said as he got up and walked towards me.
"I need some time to be by myself, tell Haechan that I left," I said as I opened the door and left.
"Haechi!" I turned around to see him out of the dorm. "I'm YukHei but you can call me Lucas.." a small grin appeared on my face as I turned around and headed towards the elevator.
I headed home, as I walked passed a couple of stores I looked in a specific place; a bar. I walked inside to see no one that I knew, I walked over to the bartender and sat down.
"Want anything to drink?" The bartender asks.
"No thanks," I said as I looked around. I looked in the booths. As I scanned through the booths I saw someone's hair which looked quite similar to Jaemin's hair. As I got a closer look at the person, I saw him; it was Jaemin. As I walked towards him with a smile, the smile soon faded after every step.
Jaemin was kissing another girl.
As I held in my tears I walked over to him, I didn't want to end this during text or at school, I wanted to end this relationship now. I tapped his shoulder, he looked at me with wide eyes as he pushed the girl away.
"Babe, it's not what it looks like," he said as he got up and stood in front of me.
"It's not what it looks like huh? Yeah, I can see that" I said sarcastically.
"She forced herself on me, I didn't-"
"If she's the one that kissed you, then why didn't you push her away?" I said as he stood there silently.
"I just-"
"Cause it felt good? Am I not enough for you Jaemin? Do I mean nothing to you now?" I asked as my vision was blurry.
"You are everything to me, I don't know why I just let her do that," tears escaped my eyes. He placed his hand on my cheek and wiped my tears with his thumb.
"Jaemin," he hummed in response. "We're done," I said coldly as I snatched his hand away from my face, walking out of the bar.
As I was about to leave Jaemin grabbed my arms and spun me around; making me face him. Tears developed in my eyes but I didn't bother shedding a tear for him.
"What do you want?" He smiled, I almost pushed him away but before I could he smashed his lips against mines. I managed to push him away but he ended up pulling me closer.
I couldn't resist his kisses. His kisses felt so magical, I loved his lips against mines. As he pulled away a string of saliva escape our lips.
"I love you," he said as he pushed his forehead against mines. I sighed.
"I don't love you," I said as I pushed him away and turned around heading out. He didn't call for me, he didn't chase after me either.
He doesn't care.
What was I expecting? He cheated on me, of course he wouldn't give any shits.
I left.
You won't have to see me ever again.
You bastard.
