Reina. (Letter)
One month.
I haven't seen nor heard from you in one month. You left school. You left town. You left me. Its okay, everyone eventually leaves. They always do. But fear not, Grayson keeps an eye on me. He makes sure I'm not alone. We've sorted out our differences and became each other's best friend. Gray told me you'll be back tomorrow or early Saturday morning, so I'm hoping we can get together and catch up. I miss you. God damn...I really miss your face, your smile, your eyes. You.
I wish I knew why you left. I wish I knew why we don't talk anymore, honest to god, I don't know what I did wrong. But if I somehow hurt you in any way, I'm incredibly sorry. Please respond, I need some explanation. Something. anything.
I'm not doing so good, mentally. I'm trying to ease the pain you caused. See, before you cut me out of your life I was struggling with opening up to people because everyone I've ever opened up to has left me or bullied me. I guess you could say I have trust issues. Which is shitty. But you, Ethan. I thought you were different. I thought I could trust you with anything. I'd give my life up for you and Grayson any day. But you didn't see that. You didn't give me the chance to show you my loyalty. I've stayed up late at night crying not only because of you, but because of the thought and fear that the people in my life will slowly start to disappear. Fuck. What did I do, Ethan!? I needed you.
Talk soon....or whatever. See you around.
Yours truly,
Reina.
(End of letter)
I reread the letter at least seven times. Some tears rolled down my face as I was folding it up and shoving it in an envelope to give to Grayson so he could make sure Ethan got it. I hope he reads it. If he reaches out to me, great, if not..whatever.
I snap out of my thoughts when I hear my phone go off.
*ding*
I look at my screen and saw that one of my friends texted me, his name is Nathan. He's a bit older than I am, I met him at a party. He's sweet and hella good looking, he goes to a college not far from the high school. We hangout a lot. There's something I like about him that's different from Ethan...he's exotic, daring, reckless, but still caring. Gray doesn't like him, he thinks Nate's a fuckboy and he also says that Nate gives off a 'sketchy vibe'. Whatever that means. I just think he's being over protective.
cute.
*Text message*
N: hey sweets, wanna hangout tonight?
R: hey stud. Sure thing, can Gray come too?
N: lit. and I was hoping it could just be us two. I have some cool things planned(:
R: okay, and yeah I guess that's fine. what do you have in mind?
N: perfect! and nah you'll have to wait... it's a surprise, sweets. Pick you up at 6pm? ;)
R: k see you then.
*End of messages*
I smile to myself after I sent that text. He's funny and so fucking random. I get up and change out of my current outfit and change into something more pleasant, I put on a long sleeved black crop top and white ripped jeans with my galaxy vans. I loosely curl my hair and touch up my makeup. I head downstairs and walk out my front door, locking it. and then I take a seat on my front steps. No more than five minutes later Nathan pulls up to my driveway, I smile and stand up walking over to his car. "How long you been out here?" He giggles giving me a hug. I laugh returning the gesture. He opens my door for me. We drove to his college, and walked around the campus a few times just talking about life and our pasts, we then went to one of his favorite places to watch the sunset. It was beautiful. It was relaxing. I sat there watching the sun go down, now and then I'd look back at Nate and catch him staring at me. His beautiful hazel eyes lock with mine and I get lost in them. I can feel myself blush. Shit. He scoots closer to me and puts his arm around my waist, pulling me closer, I gently rest my head against his chest. I can't help but feel a little comfort. I think I like him. I wonder if he feels the same. I then look up at him and he looks down at me, our faces only inches away from each other. Hot damn. He leans in and kisses me, I freeze at first but then I kiss back. Our lips moved in sync. The kiss was filled with so much lust. He pulls me onto his lap and the kiss gets even more heated. Damn he's good. He slips my shirt up over my head tossing it on the ground beside us, leaving me in my bra and jeans. I giggle at the cold breeze hitting my bare skin. I took his shirt off quickly trying my best not to break the kiss and I toss it behind him, he grins as we continue to deepen the kiss. His hands roam my body. My hands tangle in his light brown hair, tugging at every other curl I come across. Fuuuck. Shivers are running up and down and through my body. I'm craving more of him.
-
Tonight was great.
We kissed. That's all, we just made out.
I can't stop smiling to myself like an idiot as I get ready for bed.
Maybe he can help me get over Ethan? but at the same time, how can you ever get over someone you loved so deeply?
Oh but my dear, he hurt you so badly.
As I lay there in bed thinking about tonight and it's events, I suddenly see his smile in my mind. Ethan. I've missed his presence. His face. I feel tears roll down my cheeks.
Love hurts, buts its a beautiful thing.
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Ethan, why did you go?
Ethan.
It's been a month. A month since I left for Jersey. Shit was so messed up over there I had to make some changes. I'm in LA right now and the conditions here are better than back in Jersey. Which means I can go back to Nevada tomorrow. But that also means I'll have to face her. I've never been so nervous to talk to someone in my whole life. Man, this love thing is so fucking confusing. Grayson texted a few hours ago saying he has something for me once I get home from the airport. Better be pancakes, I'll be starving once I land and I don't care for plane or airport food. Ehh, never mind Gray's cooking can be questionable. I'll just make my own food when I arrive home. My phone goes off notifying I received a text. My heart starts to beat faster. Is it her? I unlock my phone confused, with a slight bit of anxiety.
Nope. It's an unknown number?
*text message*
?: play your cards right, lover boy.
E: tf? who is this..?
?: you don't need to worry about that yet. just know I have eyes on you, your brother, and the girl.
E: I swear to god if you lay a finger on either one of them, you'll be so fucking sorry. Who tf is this!?!
?: no promises bro..but you'll find out who I am very, very soon.
*read*
?: talk soon dolan. just a friendly reminder, I have eyes on all of you so if you try anything she's dead. then your brother. then your gang. and then you.
*end of text messages*
Fuck.
Change of plans my flight will now be leaving in a few hours, I'll be there by morning. I need to find Reina and Gray ASAP.
This is bad.
This is really fuckin bad.
I can't lose my brother.
I can't lose them.
I can't lose her.
What have I done?
Reina, I'm sorry.
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