I can't breathe without you

Ugh. Feelings.

I suddenly wake up with a fast jolt. Curiously I automatically looked at my black cat clock that's on my wall. It's 3:00am, ha the devils hour, supposedly a ghost is watching me. Why can't they just kill me now?! God I hate waking up so early. A wonderful smell hit my nose. "Chocolate?" I whisper softy to myself. I haven't ate in awhile,well a couple weeks I've eaten a little every once in awhile, my stomach sounds like a monster in a closet trying to get out to feast on the fear of the kid sound asleep in there comfortable bed. I stretched and placed my feet on the cold floor. I wait for a second, I hear different voices and I start to feel unease. I can't tell who it is ,but I do smell brownies and that's enough for me. I walk up to my door ,feeling a cool breeze coming from my window moving my hair, I place my shaking hand on the cold doorknob. I turn the doorknob, opening the door to a warm breeze that makes me feel better. The warmth embrace me as I quietly close my door. Why am I doing this? Just go back to sleep! abort! Go back! The anxiety is kicking in and the voices are coming out. I start to feel dizzy, and had to hold onto the wall. I look back I was already far from my room. When did I start walking? I look down at my feet, and started clinching the wall, my feet are on the edge of the step. Welp, I made it this far might as well go down there. Who is down there anyway? Why am I so scared? I want to go back,I want to hide. I feel like I'm holding my breath as I start walking down the stairs. My chest is very heavy. Half way down I hear something that took my anxiety away. "Virgil? Kiddo is that you?" Of course Patton is making brownies. "Virgil?!" Why is Logan up. "Hot topic?" Oh, it's sir,sing-a-lot. "Come on down kiddo!" I can smell the brownies coming closer,I guess Patton is holding them. I slide my feet down the rest of the stairs to feel the soft carpet go between my toes. "Hello,you hungry? Patton made brownies." Roman jesters to Patton who has a huge smile on his face. "Why are you guys all up?" I grab some brownies and sat down next to Roman. It was the only spot that was open. "I ate a cookie and now I'm in a sugar rush!!!" Patton jumped and sat on the couch. "I was up reading and got lost in time." Logan picked up the remote and started flicking though Netflix. "I woke up from my beauty sleep at 1:00 and couldn't go back to sleep." Roman drags a blanket onto himself. While they where talking I was shoving brownies in my mouth. I guess we're going to watch movies all night. I hope there actually good this time. We all started talking about the newest video that we were all in as Roman points out every Disney movie Logan goes by. Finally we all agree on the movie Moana and of course every song that came on you can slightly hear Roman humming it. We're a quart in the movie and I'm feeling very tired. I slowly move my knees up to my chest and not realizing leaning on Roman. I felt so comfortable and warm. Like I'm laying in a flower patch in the middle of summer as the heat covers me. My room is so cold and small,but here I feel like there's so much room. I'm so warm and comfortable I feel like I'm going to pass out any second. I grabbed some of Roman's blanket and covered myself up with what I got. I look over and finally realized what I was doing. I don't know why but my heart is going crazy. Why am I literally laying on Roman?! Why is my heart thumping is hard? Why do I feel comfortable like this? I feel his arm lay on my side as my head slowly falls off his shoulder onto his chest. I-is he holding me? Why is he holding me? I feel so warm. I feel so-. I fell asleep right then and there. Why did It feel so amazing laying on him? My heart is still pounding. Someone please make it stop!!