Natashas Pov
It's been a month and a half since I've been to LA and I'm back when I posted that video it got a lot of people's attention over 100m people have viewed it not only youtubers but celebrities too Colby texted me when I posted it and said he was sorry and nothing else which didn't bother me he just didn't know what to do or say
I had gotten a call from Ellen asking for me to go on her show to talk about everything and i couldn't pass it up if it's to help people speak then I'm down I didn't wanna leave the house tonight but I wanna do this show
"And is like to welcome Natasha lawley everyone" Ellen said and I walked out and went hugged her then sat down
"It's amazing to have you" she said
"It's such a pleasure" I said
"So I have a question about the video if no one has seen it Here is a little bit of it" she said as the video came up on the screen behind us I looked and wanted to cry knowing that the video has helped some people
"What made you wanna talk about everything about you" she asked
"Well when me and Colby had that break up part it made me realize how I really wanted girls to know there not alone Colby did that prank and it brought back so many bad memories from my old relationship and I realized that there are girls going through it or have been and haven't spoken up about it" i said as everyone clapped
"You talked about your suicide and cuts what is that all about tell me more about that" she said
"Well growing I was bullied physically and verbally I was hurt and sad and wanted to kill my self even at 18 I wanted to I have scars all over my body my mom would always take the sharp things away bring me somewhere for help but I would always find a way it was to the point were I had to fake being fine when I was actually going to the hospital for help my mom found out one day when she saw me at the hospital when she was bringing kian in for a broken bone"
"Why did you come out about your adoption" she asked
"Well I was hiding the real me if I was just saying I'm depressed and sad and there was no reason I would have gotten hate and I wanted to tell people more about me" I said
"Did that break help you think on everything" she asked
"It did it was all Europe and Europe is a calm place for me Yes they have had ya know so bad and tragic things happen but when your there looking around not thinking about anything it truly does help you calm especially when I had my lil brother figure with me at all times he is truly my counselor he helps me a lot" I said
"Is he the one at the end of the video" she asks
"Yes his name is zach Herron he is an amazing boy even tho he has let the fame get to him at some points no one can take the amazing warm hearted kid out of him he is always by my side and he is the oldest out of his siblings so he always thought of me as his sister and were there for eachother we go on late night drives together he has a big heart and hopefully always will" I said smiling
"You guys are really close" she asked
"Really close if I'm not texting friends I'm texting him" I said laughing
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"What about this Colby brock" she asked and smiled
"Colby brock is a special boy he has a big heart yes he takes pranks far sometimes but he truly is an amazing guy the way he is with his fans they way he talks to his fans is just amazing before everything he would tell me everyday how his fans aren't fans there his family he loves his family both his family's he is tru kind hearted boy" I said
"Who helped you come out with all this stuff and just express everything" she asked
"Logic helped me come out about my suicide anxiety and depression but my best friend sam helped me too me and sam have known eachother not long but he always seems to help me" I said
"How long has it been since you have genuinely seen sam like hug him and laugh with him" she asked
"Couple weeks I miss him a lot" I said smiling
"Oh look behind you" she said I got confused and looked behind me and saw sam
"Fuckin sam" I said getting up and running to him hugging him
"I missed you" he said
"I missed you more" I said crying a bit
"Will you come back soon Colby misses you" he said I laughed
"Yes I will" I said
