I just feel so worthless, like there is no reason for me to be in this world, and I don't want to feel like that, I really wish I could just be happy but there is something that stops me every time, I hate myself, I was asked to write down 5 things that I liked about myself and I couldn't do it, I got one ,I used to like my long hair, but my hair isn't long anymore, I cut it off, so what do I like about myself now? There is nothing, I can't think of something that I like about myself, the only thing I have eaten today is a couple carrots, because eating makes me feel sick because I hate my weight, the way my stomach and my thighs and my arms look, the way my neck and face looks, I hate it, so much, I've convinced myself that I'm not hungry, but I am, I won't eat, not today, tomorrow maybe but right now the last thing I want to do is eat something, I've come to a point where I'm questioning why I am alive again, what the point of living is, why we do anything in this world, that is where I am right now. Questioning everything.
