I dream of Augustus. The memory of when he told me that we were going to Amsterdam keeps replying in my head, but something felt different. I look down and I don't see my oxygen tank. I reach up to my face and I don't feel the tubes that laid on my face ,every single day. Why isn't my tank here? Do I still have cancer? All these question pop into my head. Then the he turns to dust and the scene changes to where I am sitting with Augustus. He tells me that he loves me and wants to marry me. Are these fantasies trying to show what I could have? As I look at him in shock, he pulls a ring box from his pocket. "Augustus", I gulped. Tears rush down my face. "We could have a life together", he said. Before I could reply, I wake up to the sound of
birds, singing in the morning light. Augustus' words replay in my head, " We could have a life together. "
Why does my mind play around with my emotions?! Is this what I want? I walk downstairs. "Mom?" I stated. I walk to her room, she sleeping. I kiss her gently on the head. She wakes up, but doesn't realize I'm standing next to her. Haha, she's probably playing a trick on me. She walks to my room. As she walks I see a bright light at the front door. She enters my room. "Hazel, Sweetie. Time to wake up.... Hazel..... Hazel?" she spoke. "Hazel.." she says but her tone of voice changes from happy to sad. I walk to the room because clearly she's acting because I'm right here. I walk in but she wasn't acting. I see my self laying on my bed. Motionless.
