BakuDeku ~ Down the Road

5 - Midoriya - Aren't I Disgusting?

As I fast walked towards the exit, still blushing after what just happened when I was stopped by someone grabbing my arm. I stop walking and look up to see Todoroki with a look of determination written across his face. Confused I ask "Todo, what's wrong?" He smirked "it's just so adorable that you call me that, you know, Todo" he leaned in close, too close. I step back to put some distance between us, but he only got closer. "You know, there's something I've just been dying to tell you" he said slyly, and I gulp. I had a feeling I knew what was coming next. "W-what do you w-want to tell me?" I stutter nervously. He opens his mouth to speak, but was abruptly cut off by Kacchan "Get away from Deku, you half and half bastard!"
     I turn to see Kacchan storming down the  hallway, looking more like an enraged bull that a human. To be honest, at this state he probably was, and I knew I had to find a way to calm him. He stomped up to Todo, hands crackling and pushed him hard enough that he fell. I step in front of him holding up my hands in defense as I protest "Kacchan stop! We were just talking I swear!" He stops, glancing at me then closing his eyes. He took a few breaths till he calmed himself. He opened his eyes and turned to face me. "Deku, I'd like to have a word alone with Shoto" he used Todo's first name meaning he was deadly serious, in which case I had no choice but to comply. I nod and leave, worried about what might happen after I left. I took quick long strides heading towards the entrance. I figured I couldn't just leave, so I set my stuff down on a bench and wait for Kacchan
     While I wait, I pull out my 18th journal and place it in my lap. Staring at it I let out a big sigh and rub my face. Just last night, Kacchan went through all of these, and revealed the truth about how I feel about him. He knows now, and he's probably revolted by it. I hadn't realized, but hot tears had begun to roll down my face, going plip, plip, plip, landing on the notebook. I wipe my face and calm my fluctuating breath. After 5 or so minutes, I check reflection with my phone and see that my eyes have become red and puffy and my face stained with tears. I get up and head to the nearest water fountain and pool water in my hands. I splash it on my face, cleansing it with cold clear water. As I'm washing, I hear footsteps behind me and figure Kacchan had finished whatever he needed to take care of
I dry off my face with my sleeve and turned to face him. " Kacchan, I-" as I turn, I find him within inches of my face, just like earlier. This time however, he just kept getting closer. My eyes widen as he presses his lips against mine, but it wasn't as rough as I'd have expected it to be. Instead it was soft and gentle, like I was seeing a whole new side to Kacchan. He holds the sides of my arms firmly, keeping me from squirming away, and the water fountain was behind me preventing a backwards escape. He pulls away after a few seconds, releasing me.
I stumbled to the side, shocked and if I was being honest a little happy. My face turned a brilliant shade crimson, rivaled only by Kacchan's eyes. I lift my hand to touch my lips, I can almost still feel his against mine. I look up at Kacchan and he's smiling "Heh. Can you believe I really just did that? I kissed a guy... I really am pathetic." He spoke softly, just like his kiss. The happiness I felt earlier vaporized. He was just acting in the moment, on a whim, nothing more. He didn't feel the same way about me as I did him. I turn to leave, heading towards my things. "I should leave.." I speak just barley louder than a whisper. His hand reaches out to grab my wrist, preventing me from going anywhere.
"Where do you think your going?" Kacchan growled "home" I reply sadly still turned away from him. I try shake my hand away from his, but he only tightens his grip. We hold this position, waiting until someone made a move. Finally after what felt like hours, I spoke first. "Don't you think I'm disgusting?" I question. "I'm a guy, your a guy. I like you, which makes me gay. Doesn't that bother you?" I slowly start to lose control, and once I started talking I couldn't stop. "You're probably repulsed by me, by the thought of the person you've known for so long has actually been secretly watching you, every day. Because you were so perfect and amazing, and better in every way than any girl I could ever have." No, I have to stop. tears once again begin to fall, getting stronger the more I talked.
     My voice level began to rise as all my pent up feelings spill into pile of words in front of me. "How do you think it feels to have someone be on your mind all the time, but know you could never be with them?! Because you would be written off as the disgusting freak who liked guys?! How do you think that feels!" Tears stream down my face as I stand there my pure sadness causing me to slightly shake. My voice interrupted by hiccups and those stupid noises you make when you cry. I finish my rant, and Kacchan hasn't said anything. I don't expect him too. Once again I try to pull away from his iron grip, but instead of holding tighter, he pulls me so I'm forced to turn around. He pulls me into a hug and grip shifts so instead of holding my arm he holds me in a tight embrace.
"When did I ever say you were disgusting?" He whispers into my ear. It takes me a second to comprehend what he said, but I hug him as hard as I can and start bawling into his shoulder. He waited for me to finish crying and calm down, rubbing my back as if I was a child in need of comforting. I wasn't a child, but I sure as hell needed some comforting, so I accepted kindly. When I was done, I felt empty. Devoid of emotion, like it had all dripped away with my tears. At the same time though, it felt like a major weight had been lifted off my chest. I let go and stepped away wiping my face "Thank you Kacchan, I'm sorry you to see that side of me" I put on a forced smile, like everything was okay.
"Deku, how long have been keeping that to yourself?" My smile falters. "Longer than I can remember" I grimace. Kacchan walks over to the bench and motions for me to sit next to him, which I do. He pulls my head down on his shoulder and I don't resist, just appreciating the moment. After a little while I start to get drowsy, and not much later I begin to dip into unconsciousness. It was probably due to me going to sleep late and having a nightmare. The last thing I remember before falling asleep is being held "bridal" in Kacchan's arms as he walks away.
     I find myself in the same black void as I did last night, but with a much different atmosphere. It felt kind and forgiving, much better than the cold harsh rejection I felt last night. Once again Kacchan stood in front of me. His face portrayed "disgusted" and I falter, worried that the same events will repeat, but they don't. Instead Kacchan smiles. I see happiness in his eyes, and suddenly the dark room fills with screens that float precariously. The screens play memory from when we were little, all the way up to the present day. I watched as they showed Kacchan and I growing up together, the little things that made me notice him and inspired the growing feelings that bloomed into full fledged love. "When did I ever say you were disgusting?" My attention turns back to Kacchan who is surrounded by the memories with the strongest emotions. The words ring in my ears, bringing a new hope to my eyes.
     It hadn't been my subconscious generating those words to comfort me, Kacchan said those words in real life, and he meant them. He didn't hate me, or find himself repulsed by me. But why though? Had we just been friends for so long he felt he needed to say that, or was it something more? My hand reached to touch my lips, remembering the kiss he planted on them. no, it's something more I thought. Even though it's a dream, my cheeks begin to burn as the blood rushes to them. I clutch my chest as it beats faster, joy spreading through my body and I smile. The future that seemed so far out of reach, the one that  I'd only seen in my dreams has finally come into view. My breaths shake as I suppress tears, having cried enough today. I had a tendency to cry, but today was worse than usual. Instead I look up and stare Kacchan straight in the eyes, and smile as big as I can. I see his lips move and he says something but I can't make it out. The void begins to fade as I am pulled back into consciousness. I wake with a gasp, sitting up straight, and look around. Look around to find myself in what appears to be Kacchan's room, sleeping in his bed.

I'm so evil... enjoy the cliffhanger! Didn't post yesterday cause I fell asleep, whoops. Because of that there'll be another update today. Also, I finally got a full length chapter out! (/•w•)/🎉 Me writing this: *intense typing* this is soO BAAAAADDD *typing intensifies*

See you later today, bai