JUST LOVE ME. (poems)

🗺SET SAIL🗺

EXPLICIT: strong language

i thought i saw something
so beautiful in those oceans of yours
it looked like it could be for me
it looked like my treasure
i am the greedy pirate
so i decided to set sail

my boat was shit, let me say that
torn, bruised, beaten
it didn't look like much, but it had been through a fuck load of problems
my boat was a warrior
and so was the person boarding it

the oceans you owned
they were so beautiful
i wanted to dive right in and feel the water
surround me
engulf me
love me

once i placed one toe onto my boat
i knew i would be in for a ride
i knew that it would ruin me for good
but it was worth the risk, i guessed

the boat left the shore
it tried to get to your treasure, the treasure didn't notice it yet

the water was calm, smooth, rippling
i felt safe
i felt loved

it would be a long journey
but again, it was totally worth the risk

much later, i knew i was getting closer
bliss would be arriving
your oceans looked more beautiful and blue than ever

that's when the grey came

big grey clouds engulfed the blissful blue above me
the waves became rough
and thunderstorms were heard in the distance
no, not now

yet i can't help but reference that one arctic monkeys song
and the treasure was so close i could almost touch it
i wanted to touch it
but i couldn't

i don't necessarily need the treasure
but i need my life
so all i can do is save myself
no, fuck the treasure. fuck this. it wasn't worth it.

your ocean is still blue, again, more beautiful than ever

the boat is rocking sideways, and i feel sick
until i'm thrown overboard once i hear
a strike of lightning
yet another arctic monkeys song i could reference

i'm going to die
this can't be it
not when i was about to reach one of my goals

i'm sinking, and i don't bother to swim back up
i'd rather just give up
and i'm falling into you
your blue oceans
and i've actually never felt safer
because you're engulfing me
the comfort is enthralling

so enthralling that i'm dead
it was worth the risk, i guessed.

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