My story

Relationships

As far as relationships with girls go I've only dated two girls my first girlfriend was a girl who was a junior while I was at the time a freshman she was a lesbian and I told her I was bi also at the time this other girl liked me her name was Mariana Jake had told me that they liked me and I was surprised because I had just come out to my friend group who was all very proud of me and very happy I wasn't worried and their were no tears this time around but when I came out I had found out that Serena was lesbian but marina was just curious and thought I was cute. They had both ended up telling Jake about their crush on me I guess. I ended up dating Serena we didn't have too much in common though she like to make costumes and dress up and watch anime and she doesn't really listen to music or read one thing we had in common is our mutual hatred of people and singing she had invited me over to her place she had a karaoke machine she even invited my best friend too just to make me more comfortable because she wanted to do more but I think she was scared that she would scare me away if she was too forward maybe it had happened in other relationships with her but I mean that wasn't the case with me though we never ended up discussing that together I was always pretty shy around her so I get what could have sent her that idea I take a while to get used to someone when we start dating but that didn't necessarily translate to being shy in what she thought. Anyways things were good we would hold hands at lunch at first I would blush so much and she would always pull my free hand away from my face because she thought it was cute when I blushed eventually I didn't as much so that was good one day after lunch I pulled her to the bathroom and we waited until everyone left and I was too nervous to initiate the kiss so she did and it was awkward at first but really good and we stumbled a bit due to me being clumsy as fuck nervous as fuck and excited as fuck so all three of those combined didn't really help my balance at all so we stumbled and I pulled us to the wall she was against the wall and my hands were wrapped around her waist and hers were the same but I thought someone was about to come in so I pulled away suddenly but I didn't want to not yet we smiled at each other at then I went in for another kiss I wanted to prove to her that I could initiate it it was quick then we pulled apart and left we did this over the course of our relationship met up in the bathroom and waited for people to leave. She revealed to my best friend that she wanted to get more touchy feely with me and as a mentioned before I didn't mind really I wanted that too but I was a little nervous about it because well number one this was my first girlfriend and number two I'm not exactly in love with my body or anything so yeah but I still wanted to we never got the chance though because I broke the relationship off because my ex got involved he started talking to her and my friends spreading lies about me so I just broke it off for fear that she would believe him and turns out I was right she and everyone else did there ended up being a lot of drama and now me and her practically hate each other she hates me because I'm dating the guy she likes and I hate her because well she likes my fucking boyfriend so yeah that relationship turned sour not to mention she also went on a date with my ex that ruined my life and made me depressed which o told her about but yeah so anyways that relationship didn't work out in the end and turns out I have a lot more in common with marina if I had just chosen her in the first place it wouldn't have been an issue but oh well I guess things happen for a reason.
Anyways my second and last girlfriend her name was savannah and she's lesbian I knew this for a while and me and her had been friends for a while probably like two or three years now when I first met her I didn't like her at allllllllllll I don't know why I just didn't she was loud and weird but now I'm loud and weird too so now she's one of my best friends anyways I was dating my asshole ex at the time but I had been wanting to break up with him before I even discovered my feelings for savannah because he's an asshole so just don't go back with your ex's they're your ex for a reason anyways so I broke up with him and I went to this pool party with my best friend and Savannah so I had said something I don't remember what indicating that i had a secret but I wouldn't say what when they tried to ask me I would put my head under water eventually I was laughing too much to keep putting my head under and Savannah and my best friend kept grabbing me trying to pull me up so eventually I said I liked someone but I wasn't gonna tell them who so there was a step kind of thing where savannah was sitting everyone else was sitting there too and talking but they had went to go get food so it was just me and her so I swam up and sat next to her and everyone came back over and I was on the edge and me and savannah were squished together so her legs were over mine and my hands were over her legs this is normal for us we do that a lot but then she started playing with a hair tie that was around my wrist and I could tell she was thinking about something because people were trying to talk to her and she wasn't really responding to them I asked if she was okay and she said she was fine we started talking a little bit she had just cut her hair so I told her I like it better short it looks good on her and she kept playing with the damn hair tie and it was driving me crazy all of the butterflies were flying around in my stomach we just sat there in silence it was comfortable later that night I told her I liked her and I remember how nervous I was but also I fucking happy I was because she liked me back I don't even remember being that happy before then. The next weekend it was my best friends birthday and so we were both going and  I had asked her to be my girlfriend right before it I was going to wait until we were in person but I couldn't and she was gonna wait too but she said yes anyways. When we got there it was fun I remember one time my best friend was off talking to someone else that she had invited and Savannah had trapped me against the pool wall and she looked like she was about to kiss me too we were so close I was just going to lean in and kiss her but the stupid people there blow their whistles at you for PDA so I didn't even try we were having a sleepover that night though so I would try then but that didn't happen either I was too nervous but we were outside laying in this playground and she was playing in my lap and I was playing my hair and she looked at me and she was like I saw the cutest girl at the pool today and I'm like really I was just about to say the same thing. I told my best friend about the I want to kiss her but I can't because I'm too damn nervous help what do I do thing and she ended up telling savannah and we didn't end up kissing but anyways we went inside and started watching a movie to which Savannah promptly fell asleep and eventually I did too a few weeks later savannah dumped me but we maintained our friendship with a few awkward moments still like the time I slept over at her house and we ended up staying up watching some kids show and singing along to the theme song and laughing and then she was still watching and I was asleep and I apparently sat up and said fuck you to the maim character of the show and the proceeded to cuddle savannah which I tend to do in my sleep. And then she slept over at my house and cuddled me which both times I admit I liked a lot still. But we're still just friends she likes someone which she normally does