I've Been Thinking Too Much || J.D.

Chapter One

Ashley's P.O.V.

How easily do I get caught up in my feelings? I hate him so much. I've known him since I was six. He's my big brother's best friend. Josh used to be like a brother to me then he changed. He figured out relationships and ever since he has been in and out of them like nobody's business. But why do I care so much? If I hate him then why do I care?

I was brought out of my thoughts when Tyler started to tap on my shoulder. "Ash, Ash!" He yelled. I look up from looking down at the floor. "What?" I ask. "You've been staring at the floor for over an hour. What's going on with you?" Tyler asked.

"That's none of you goddamn business."

"What happened to the 'your business is my business' rule?"

"We haven't talked about that rule in such a long time. It's been since we were teens that we used that rule."

I laugh slightly at the rule. We were so naive as teens. Being stupid. Lighting paper on fire. Getting yelled at. Not a care in the world. Sometimes I miss those days.

I stand up. We were already at the first venue. "The Emøtiønal Røadshøw Tøur is going to be so fun!" Tyler says as we walk into the venue. "I'm just along for the ride." I say. Tyler stops right in front of me and turns around. "What the hell is wrong with you?" Tyler asked. I cross my arms. "It doesn't matter." I say. Tyler crosses his arms. "Yes it does. I'm your big brother. I'm in charge of you. Tell me." Tyler says.

I try to walk around him but he walks in the way. "Tell me. Or you don't get your phone back." Tyler said. He grabs my phone from my hand and puts it in his pocket. My jaw drops. "Fine. You drag me on tour and force me to be around Josh." I say. Tyler furrows his eyebrows. "I thought you liked Josh, you know, as friends." Tyler said. "Not since we were teens." I say.

Josh walks out of the venue. "Guys! Come on! We need to do a sound check!" Josh yells. "We'll talk about this later." Tyler says and hands me my phone. We walk inside the venue. I sit at the edge of the stage. My ankles were crossed and I was swinging them.

I felt a slight kick on my back. I turn around and expect to see Tyler. My expectations were too high. "What do you want?" I ask. "I was wondering if you wanted to go to the convenient store to get snacks and Redbull." Josh said. "Is Tyler going?" I ask. "Well, No, but-" I cut Josh off. "Then, no. I'm fine right here, thanks." I say with attitude. Josh sits beside me. "Are you sure?" Josh asked.

I stand up. "I'm sure." I say. Josh stands up too. I begin to walk away.

Josh's P.O.V.

Ashley stands up. I stand up with here. "Please, I don't want to go alone." I say. I like Ashley a lot. She's cute and funny. But she didn't like me. She told me a while ago that I was self-centered and I only cared about myself.

"Are you really sure?" I ask. She turns around. "Yes, Josh! I'm really sure!" She yells. I raise my hands in defense. Way to go Josh. The one chance you had to make her not hate you and you fucked it up.

I sit at my drums and hold the drumsticks. "You good, Josh?" Tyler asked. "Yeah, just thinking." I say. "What about?" Tyler asked. 'Your sister. I like her a lot but she hates me because I'm self-centered and I only care about myself.' I wanted to say so badly. "Just thinking." I say. "Is this about my sister again?" Tyler asked. I stare at him.

"Yeah. I really want her to like me."

"You know how Ashley is. She puts her mind to something and sticks with it."

"Sometimes I wish she wasn't like that."

Tyler shrugs his shoulders because he has nothing else to say. I put my drumsticks down and sit at the edge of the stage. I was getting a call from my mom.

"Hey mom."

"Hey Joshy! How's it going with your band and all? Ready to come home?"

"Mom I just left. I haven't even started the first show yet."

I heard talking in the background. It was probably my dad. "I have to go honey. I'll talk to you later. Love you!" "Love you too mom." I hang up. Short and sweet. That was my mom. "Yo, Josh! Get on your drums 's we can rehearse a few songs!" Tyler said. I jump up and get on my drums. I look at Ashley, who was smiling at her brother. She looked at me and her smiled faded. This made me feel sad. Just one look at me and she stops smiling.

After we were finished rehearsing, Ashley sat at the piano and started to sing Goner. I smiled slightly at the sound of her voice. She's so perfect. Her voice sounds like liquid gold.

I felt someone put their hand on my shoulder. It made me jump. I turn around. It was Tyler. "After all these years you're still a jumpy bitch." Tyler laughs. I laugh but it quickly fades. I look over at the piano and Ashley wasn't there anymore. She was sitting in the middle of the floor on the ground level. She was looking around. Occasionally she would look at her phone. She looked at me and I looked away quickly. "Josh! Come here!" She yells. I walk down to her. "Still up for the convenient store? I'm kinda hungry." She says.

I hold my hand out for her to take. She pushes it out of the way and stands up. She still hates me. Okay, got it.

Hey guys! So this is the first chapter of my Josh Dun story! I hope you guys enjoy it. I love you all so much!!

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