Rants

Realization PT. 2

Theme: Do what you want not what others want...

Ouch, so this is going a bit into myself. You who are reading this are going to get an inside scoop of my mind and the person I am.

Before I read that chapter I was just talking to myself and I said some things that I normally don't talk about.

My older sister talks to me saying your going to hurt yourself by writing about others more than yourself, that I need to drop the bad habit.

But its who I am, I want to fix others problems, I might not seem like it but I'm a very person type person. If you understand what that means, it means that I enjoy others company and fear of being alone.

If my friend is having a bad day, ill keep my problems to myself, I won't act sad or mad if I was emotional that day. Ill hide it and smile and try my hardest to make that person happy to make them smile.

Now you may be thinking if your so good at solving others problems then why not solve yours...

The thing is I don't know how to, my problems are anxiety and shyness. I fear being alone but I'm shy and scared to go up to new people. I love hanging out with people but when new people show up i go silent.

I'm different at school then I am at home, I'm kinda normal with my friends at school but not like if we were hanging out with others.

I fear being judge...

I don't know what to do, I hate putting my problems on others...I hate making others worried about me...

What do I do...

Theme: Worry more about yourself than others,...

Its not healthy...

~ Six