day four » 3 / 10 / 14

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by ofsgucci

by ofsgucci

Dear My Love,

I finally put some food into my body. The strong pain radiating from my stomach finally got the best of me, so I retrieved the yellow phone book you insisted we order and got delivery Chinese food. It has been bothering me that every time I refer to you and me as us, I have to refer to us in the past tense. The words we and us have never had any meaning to me what so ever. I took those words for granted.

Us; pn. used by a speaker to refer to himself or herself and one or more other people as the object of a verb or preposition.

We; pn. used by a speaker to refer to himself or herself and one or more other people considered together.

Now, there is no 'one other person' or 'together'. There is just the singular pronouns, I and me. I keep wondering if there will ever be another person in my life to make my fall in love so hard the way you did. If there will ever be another person to kiss my soft skin on my forearm the way you did. If there will ever be another person to wipe away my salty tears with their middle finger, not the thumb- never the thumb, the way you did.

As I was writing before, the Chinese food. At the bottom of the large brown bag they placed all my food in, was a lonesome fortune cookie, and you know of my love for the crunchy vanilla cookie. If you know me even better, which you do, you would know that the minuscule slip of recycled paper inside the cookie is my most desired part. The irony of the small ink on the paper caught me completely off guard.

Even though you feel as if life is draining away, and you have nothing to live for. Just know that someone out there is only living for your breaths. Lucky Numbers; 2 7 18 29 42.

I can't help but wonder if the small slip is true, and if it is you who is only alive because of me. I might sound foolish as these cookies are massed produced, but why would it relate to a tee. I just want to know, do you even miss me?

Love, Your Beauty.