Game of My Heart

Hi! I'm Darlene and this is one of my first books on Wattpad and I'm still a little rough around the edges so there's probably going to be a lot of typos. And as long as I get a good amount of people reading I'll update as regularly as possible (Maybe every Monday and Friday). If not I'll just not upload until the amount of people I have the "required" amount of reads. So yeah! And also this is a write as I go kind of story--although it does have somewhat of a structure-- but by all means, write in the comments of what you want to happen! Mkay to the story we go!+++

White fluffy balls of ice stuck to my snug boots as I trooted through the cold. I pulled my beanie closer to my dark hair and tugged it over my small (now red) ears. How did it get this cold so fast? I thought to myself.  

Honestly, it was literally fairly warm for winter in this Virginian town not even a week ago. Now it was a bloody 16 degrees. The weather had been so bipolar lately my immune system has gone to shit. Of course I loved the winter like the next person but in the way of how it is in the movies--but when it comes to that time of the year, reality bitch slaps you in the face and reminds you it isn't all hot chocolate and happy Frosty the Snowman. Especially if you have to walk home in this God forsaken snow and your house was a seven miles down the road.  

Usually I wouldn't walk home but my sister insisted on taking my car to her boyfriend's beach house in Flordia for the weekend. She better pay for gas--that ain't cheap!  

I started to smother my mind with useless and bitter thoughts when I hear footsteps behind me. They were light and smooth sounding yet they were rushed--as if moving towards something-but at the same time they were staying a good distance away. As I felt a stab of paranoia settling in I turnd my head a bit to the side, but no one was there. Huh? I swear someone was there. I shook my head as I turned around ad started to walk even faster home, still feeling like someone was behind me. Who would be stupid enough to kidnap somone in broad daylight anyway? And next to a dozen shops with a decent amount of people inside.  

"Throw it away 

Forget yesterday 

We'll be make the great escape" 

"The Great Escape" started to blare through the speaker of my phone. Automatically I rolled my eyes already knowing who it was. But of course I relunctently took out my device and I looked a the dim screen. Popping up was a picture of a cute guy holding a cute tan teddy bear he had won me at the last state fair, under it was a name--Waron with a "<3" next to his name. I fought back a tear as I thought whether or not I should answer it. He had already left enough messages for me for my to delete my voicemail twice. Don't pick it up, don't pick it up. But it felt like against my will that my thumb was already over the pick up icon and tapped it. 

"What?" I tried my best to sound as calm as possible but instead it came out in barely a whisper. 

"Ellie," A husky voice sighed. "Please talk to me." 

"If I picked up the phone, what do think I'm doing right now?" A car behind me honked as I stepped a little too much off the sidewalk. 

"Do not tell me you're walking home from practice in this snow." He said with his voice content. I hated that he knew when my cheer practice was, since he was Reciever for our football team. He continued with my silence. "Where are you?" 

I hesitated for a second. I didn't want to spend a good fifteen minute drive with him. I wouldn't know what to do or what to say. I looked around to the road sign next to the town's church and took another second to gather my voice to say: "Artenster road near the old church." I wanted to kick myself for quivering when it came out. 

"Okay, I'm a block down. I'm coming to get you." He said abruptly and hung up. A minute or two minutes later I heard a hum of a car engine and rolling tires.  

Oh God, I can't do this, I can't face him after all the things that were said and done between him and her. I didn't bother looking back even though I heard Waron call my name, although I stopped in my tracks a bit. But since he is Waron Valer, he rolled up right in front of me and over the sidewalk causing me to jump back. He looked at me with his perfect freaking eyes. The same eyes that I used to love stare at me, but now I wish I never even made contact with them in the first place because of the heartache that would follow. Sighing I got into the stupid car. 

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"I know you probably hate me." He finally said halfway to my house. 

"I don't." I hated that I still liked him. 

"Then why are you barely trying to say something." 

A tear started to roll down my cheek, "Do you know hard doing just this is for me?" I said with a few quiet sobs mixed in. "Just riding in the same car as you is too much right now. Especially knowing that you and Sarah slept together." My voice trailed off as I covered my mouth to muffle the sound of my little cries. Waron turned sharply into the next indent in the road and looked square at me, but I was still looking straight forward. 

"I've said it over and over again that I'm sorry and I know I'm a fucking asshole for doing that. But I swear she started it. God, just look at me El." 

I turned to him. "How can you expect me to even look at you the same way?! And it doesn't matter who started it, because you should have ended it before you took her fucking shirt off!" I snapped, I had let out all the things I was holding inside of me. "And with Sarah of all people, the teenage whore! You promised me just hours before that you loved me!" Tears were slipping like a spinkler. I knew he hated when I cried, mostly because I didn't really let people see it due to the fact that I knew how to bottle things up and wait until no one was around to cry. 

"What do you want me to say? That it was good and easy sex? That I wasn't feeling like shit afterwards? Fine it was awesome, but I felt like I was run over by a 18-wheeler after I realized what had happened." He stated.  

I sat there stunned, with that I felt like I was punched in the stomach. It was awesome? How could you say that... Then I opened the door and started to get out. "You didn't say it back." He said, almost not even audiable. "You didn't tell me you loved me, and it crushed me." 

I huffed out air when I was finally out of the car. "And you thought I would say it after you slept with her?" He opened his mouth to say something but before he could I slammed the car door and continued to walk home.

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A/N

Okay, so hopefully it wasn't too painful to read :D and remember once again this is a write as I go kind of story--although it does have somewhat of a structure-- but by all means, write in the comments of what you want to happen! mKay BYE!