A Muse

13: Jimin

Hello, readers(:

This is another shorter chapter, and I'm sorry for it; I'm moving back to the States so I haven't had a lot of time! I hope you are enjoying the story so far!

Comment if you want to see anything, or if you want certain things done better!

Also, we are going to be getting into some fluff soon which will inevitably lead to the coming smut which I know everyone must be excited for. Aren't we all?

Thank you for reading this far!

-Kae

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Journal Entry 4:

It's Thursday, and a full week has passed since Jungkook and his mom welcomed me into their home. So much has happened. The good news is that I love it here. Kyung Mi treats me just like a son, and she hasn't pushed for answers that I can't give. I've gotten to know her and Jungkook more, and there is a comfort I feel here that I was unable to feel in my apartment. I missed school and rehersal all of last week, but I went back to classes this last Monday since the bruises on my face were able to be covered with make up. I had to lie about the split in my lip and why I was gone to the guys, but I had to. They can't know. Anyway, Jungkook and I went to the phone store so I could get a new phone number. Jungkook didn't ask me why I needed a new number, and I appreciated that. Before that, I hadn't even turned on my phone because I was afraid of the messages, the calls, and the voicemails that I would find from Levi.

I started this Journal the day Jungkook's mom and him took me in. A week has passed, and I haven't been able to write about what happened. There are already three journal entries before this one, and I haven't hardly mentioned that night in any of them. I haven't been able to talk about it, of course, but I can barely admit what happened to myself. I can't bring myself to write it out yet. Putting it on paper will make it too real, and I don't think I'm ready.

On another note, Yoongi has the key to my apartment right now, and he has been checking on the place. I'm afraid. What if Levi tries to stop by again, but he finds Yoongi instead? Yoongi is really strong, but Levi is cruel... I'm afraid Yoongi may get hurt, and what will I do then? Keeping my relationship with Levi a secret will have been for nothing! I didn't talk about Levi to them so they wouldn't try to intervene, so they wouldn't get hurt, but now Yoongi has my key. I shouldn't have given it to him, I should have fought more... I don't know what to do anymore

I close the journal. I can't look at the page anymore. I push up from the desk and slide the small book under the mattress of my bed. I check the time on my phone, and it reads 17:07. Jungkook should be home soon.

I turn to face the full length mirror, and I pull my shirt over my head. I study my reflection: the bruising is still bad around my rib cage, but it's slowly fading. The bruises along my abdomen aren't as terrible since they are already turning more green than blue. I lean closer, and I touch my busted lip. The bruise in the corner of my mouth is almost gone, and the one high on my cheek has healed completely. I still remember the impact of each hit, each kick, and I still remember the pain.

A knock sounds on my door, and I spin. A choked noise escapes me because I couldn't speak faster than Jungkook could open the door. He is standing in the doorway, and he is staring at me. My arms twitch to cover my stomach, but I hold them by my sides because it's too late: he already saw.