ANOTHER RANDOM ART BOOK cringe version 0.2

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I'm going to redraw stuff .-.

I'm honestly feeling like shit right now.

Visited my old account.

Saw i had 62 votes for my art book.

Got angry because it was full of rants.

So full of rants.

I didn't like it.

I was there like

"How dare you?"

I know i need to wash my mouth with soap.

I look at myself and say that hey

I'm actually pretty fucked up.

I look back at my Energytale and scream because it really sucks.

It just.

Sucks.

and right now, as i'm writing it.

I'm doubting myself.

I know nobody would like it,

So honestly why bother.

Why bother when im doubting everythingi do.

I'm probably just doing this for attention but im telling you.

Every personality i have i think is a lie.

I want to be broken inside.

I think thats a mask.

I want to be happy.

I think thats a mask.

I don't know what am i.

I don't know.

It's pride month.

I'm planning to draw my gay OTPs.

I feel that im getting more depressed every year  honestly.

All the fandoms, taking a toll on my soul.

Everytime i beat myself up by crushing my heart with anti comments.

I don't know how to explain this.

I feel like im not real.

I feel that hey, nobody cares.

I'm so scared of work, so scared of dieing and nobody remmebering me.

I think im useless, im a liability.

I'm not going to commit suicide.

No.

I have stuff to live for.

But i'm feeling like shit.

I'm  a Leo.

And i think  i've been giving too much love that i don't have enough for myself anymore.

i gave up

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-liz