Jealous {Katsudeku}

🌸Farewell🌸

I'm a coward.

I know I am.

I'm so sorry.

Fucking leaving without saying goodbye.

Now that's a dick move.

Please don't show this to my mom. I wrote her a separate one it's in my drawer. Please give it to her. And you got a hold of this first, mom, stop reading. Please. I don't wanna hurt you anymore than I already have.

I'm so sorry.

Be prepared, this is gonna take  both of us a while.

I hate you. I hate that you were hers and not mine.

I hate that you're so fucking oblivious.

But more than anything...

I hate the fact that I wasn't brave enough to tell you how I felt. I hate that I'm such a coward who resorted to...well this. Is it bad that I'm laughing. God, I'm sorry, I'm ruining the moment aren't I? I making you feel worse about this aren't I? I can do anything right...maybe I'm the useless one after all. I'm so sorry. I really loved you...which is why...I have to do this. I have to rid myself of you and you have to do the same. This relationship we have...just because your oblivious to it doesn't make it any less toxic.

I cling to you more than I should. I love you so much and not as a brother. I never wanted a brother. I never wanted you to be my brother. I wanted to be with you in ways that others can't...I guess Ochako took on that role. Can't blame you...

People have so many thoughts on love.

Some say it's the best thing you'll ever experience

Others say it's the worst

They say when you love someone you set them free

Others...that you can't live without them

You'd be surprised that it's none of these...it's all of them.

I've had hanahaki for all my life. Well...ever since I met you.

Now hear me out. I'm not blaming you. I never was. I never will.

Everything that's happened to me...everything I do is my own fault.

It's all my fault.

I was too rude too subtle and too scared. Unlike you. You were so brave. It was only a matter of time before you were out of my grasp and only a second after when it would finally sink in. When you said she was your first kiss I was so angry. Angry that you forgot. I kissed you first I loved you first. You should've been mine. I guess it was for the best. I hope you're happy with Ochako.

Take care of her.

She deserves the world.

And you being mine...

it's the closest I can give her.

Farewell Izuku. I love you will all my heart and I hope you live a happy and fulfilling life. All I ask is one thing. Don't let this letter hold you down. I wanted to free you not hold you down. I know you're hurting and I know this'll be the first time I won't be there for you but please stay strong.

I'm sorry.