(This is a poem in the perspective of anxiety torturing a girl for falling in love with a boy she barley knows)
How long will it last until it means nothing
Like last time, or the time before that?
Do you buy him gifts to let him know
That he is yours?
Or that you are his?
He accepts everything you do, because he doesn't realize what you are. He does not care what you are.
He gives you a locked freedom
Making you think you're better
Making you unknowingly pretend to be better.
You play with your hair, and put on clothes that make you feel "popular" and relevant. To make you feel happy.
Yes you look the same as the others, but look closer and you'll see flaws.
Months pass, and you say you love him;
You kiss him, cuddle him,
Smother him in "well earned love"...
And for what?
Because he doesn't look at other girls as much?
Because he doesn't run away as much?
Because everyone knows about it, and tries to tell you to leave because you "deserve better". You deserve nothing.
Is it because he gave you a couple hugs and kisses the same as you and you felt loved?
He will leave you.
The second some hot girl comes by, like all the times before.
He'll flirt with her, she'll laugh, he'll ask her out, and if she says yes...then he'll break up with you. If he breaks up with this girl or vise versa or If she says no, well you're just the backup plan.
Remember that.
