Bitchy Nerd

Chapter 3

"Some things are better left unsaid." 

He leaned closer, and closer by second. As if to make it easier for him, he grabbed my waist pulling me way closer to him. And it happened.

The thoughts of it, is making my tummy sick. It was even faster than Usain fucking Bolt but yet left that butterfly effect for the past six days. And being an asshole Luke is, no text and no call at all. I repeat, at all. And to get rid of my obscure feelings being such a nice kid I am, I skipped school and decided to go to the beach.

“A company won’t hurt, right?” I jumped a little – scared that the person is going to be my dad or else. It was obviously a guy’s voice but I can’t recognize whose.

As I turn my head, it was someone I would not expect not even a tiny bit. “Ryder Irvine, such a surprise meeting you here.” Remembering the last time we talked didn't end well. 

“Well, I’m as well not expecting to meet you here.” He said like he could read my mind or is it something crystal clear written all over my face?

I chuckled lightly letting the air being replaced by the presence of him. The wind was super breezy – since its August which means summer is almost over – making Ryder runs his fingers through his hair not letting it to ruin his soft brunette hair.

 “So, its Lucy?” I raised an eyebrow.

He shrugged looking down to the white sand that’s been washed up by the waves. By the count of seconds, his jaw tightens and clenched his hands into a fist showing his already white knuckles. His face was full of anger causing his cheeks to have red shades like steams coming out of his ears. But then, I don’t know what has gotten into me I quickly hold his hands making circles on top with my thumb soothing him. Weirdly it works and slowly his nerves begin to calm.

 “I won’t force you to tell but–“

He quickly cut me off, “Fuck it all. I was wrong about her the whole time. Damn now I sound cheesy. I just can’t get her off my fucking mind. She was there all fucking time. She was making out with my fucking best buddy. And there she is acting all innocent.” He then groaned angrily, tensed again.

“Sometimes things don’t work the way you wanted. The world is not a wishing well. It’s not created to pleased you. And in the end all you can do is just to suck it all up.” I said reaching the side of his face and kiss his cheek.

Immediately I stood up to wipe all the sand, which is all over my lower back body. He grabs my left arm continued by him standing up and the next thing I know his lips crashed into mine. His both hand trailing up to cup my face.  I kissed him back. It gets more intense each second. I feel a lick on my lips – him asking for entrance – and so I let him. His hands started to unbotton my plaid shirt then I realized his hands have moved all the way down to my bums, squeezing it.

The world becomes lighter when I know that my feet aren’t touching the ground anymore (read: Ryder lifted me up). My back crashed on to a hard surface. He then bit my lower lip causing me to moan a little. Oh shit we did it again.

He pinned me against the wall. Long yet soft fingers trailed underneath my shirt, leaving tingling feeling on every touch. Our lips crave for more as the music gets louder. I laughed and we parted. His hazel eyes with a splash of green colour in the middle look deeper into my light blue eyes, crashing his lips into mine, again for God knows how many times. He picked me up and put me on the bed. 

"Are you sure?"

I nodded in agreement. He softly kissed my cheek. Going down on to my neck, giving it a bite. I moan in satisfaction. Then he gets lower, on to my chest then my stomach. I cracked a laugh on tickles getting in to my guts. 

"Are you sure?" He asked me one last time.

Giving it away probably is a huge decision on my life. His name never even crossed my mind to be the one doing this to me. I always thought it was going to be Luke. Me and him aren't even dating, but then I have this huge trust by giving it to him. 

When another thought comes to my mind.

Karen.

My heart pounds faster even than before. I pushed his chest away from me causing us to pull apart. Both of us look at each other in confusion.

"Shit.” We said in unison.

 I shut my eyes close and open it right away. “I’m screwed.”

My phone rang showing up the name of Karen. He shot me a are-you-gonna-pick-it-up-or-just-stand-there-like-an-idiot glare. 

"Where are you? Is Ryder with you? Because he wasn't at school. I didn't see him." She worriedly asked.

"I–uh. I'm here. Ryder? I wouldn't be with him without y–you." I nervously stated. Karen knows nothing about my past with him. She'd totally be mad for not telling her at the first place. 

"Right, obviously. Meet me at Chips." And by that, she hung up. 

Ryder raised an eyebrow, demanding for an answer at his none said question.

"Some things are better left unsaid. Including us."

"And this happen again and again. Why are you doing this to me?" He furiously shouted. 

"No, it's not me. It's us. Luke or Lucy or whoever it is, we can't deny the fact that we are madly in love with them. And us? We are not more 'than friends with benefit'." I quoted.

"Screw it. I know this would happen all over again." 

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Note:

Finally its up! I’m so sorry, I haven’t updated for ages. Since I’ve got lots of things going on in my life. But I guess everything is going well for now, so I decided to update! And I'm sorry if it's a bit weird for you guys. Please vote and comment! :)

Addy x