Maci POV
later that night jack and Caspian were playing and i was just smiling and taking pictures but soon it was 7:30 which was caspians bedtime and sadly we had to leave jack whike we went to the hotel
m- jack
j- yeah *he said not really paying attention to me*
m-jack its 7:30
j- oh are you gonna leave now
m- i have to cas has to go to sleep im sorry
j- no no its okay baby i understand
m- i love you
j- i love you most
*you get up and pick up caspian you kiss jack and hug him for a while and silently cry*
j- baby why are you crying dont cry
m- i just hate having to leave you
j- i know only 2 more weeks and ill be home forever
m- i know but its just hard not having you at home you know?
j- i understand love but i couldnt keep living like that for you and our son
m- i know everything has just been hard on me with loosing the baby i feel like its my fault that shes gone and then i had no time to grieve bc i had to take carelf caspian all alone bc you where doing god knows and i forgive i really do but everything is just so hard and idk how much longer i can take this
j- im so so sorry baby i really am i didnt know you felt that way i promise when we get home ill have my mom watch caspian and we go get away and grieve and talk everything out. i promise im sorry love i really am
m- i already told you i forgive you but that would be nice but me and cas have to go its almost 8:30
j-ok ok ill let you go forreal this time
m- okay we love you say bye bye cas
c- bye bye daddy
j- bye bubby i love you
c- i wuv you too daddy
m- bye lover boy
j- bye cutie i love you
m- i love you most
* and then we left *
once we got back to hotel to the hotel cas was already asleep so i went to bed and cried myself to sleep with my thought
a/n sorry its kinda short
ren out * mic drop *
