𝚃𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚕𝚎𝚜𝚜 {𝙴.𝙳} 𝚍𝚒𝚜𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚞𝚎𝚍

4

"Don't get to nervous you guys will do fine" I tell Gabriel before he runs of into the field. I walk into the bleachers sitting in the top row next to Lisa

"Hey darling" she says while I sit next to her "hey" I smile brightly

"I'm super excited, it took me a long time to get Ethan to play football again, I can't tell you how excited I am" she says super happy

"Why so long?" I ask directed to Ethan

"oh sweetie. When I told them I was sick with cancer, let's just say Ethan didn't take it very well.
He was mad at the world, at first he wouldn't come down for dinner or anywhere,and Grayson would have to argue with him, and when he did
He stopped talking,
And my husband wasn't helping either, he left us and it made Ethan a lot worse
I'm so lucky to have Grayson he helps me so much. I love them both I'm just waiting for the old, funny, goofy, smart Ethan to come back"

She looked at me with sad eyes this time.

"And oh that's when I knew it's all my fault" she finished looking at me

"this isn't your fault Lisa, you are amazing. Ethan will come back I promise"

She smiled and hugged me "I'm so happy for you"

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She clapped to the moving players, I watched it closely

The ball was passed from Gabriel to Grayson. Than to Ethan, he ran quickly dodging the players and running for the touch down

He makes the last step slapping the ball onto the touchdown line.

No smile, appeared on his face, even though he won the game for the team. All the players run up to him almost pushing him down. The crowd roars Ethan's name happily

I look over at Lisa to see her mouth wide of a smile.

She really loves him.

We walk off the bleachers while Grayson, Gabriel, and Ethan walks towards us

"Good job Gabriel" I hug my brother, "good job Grayson" I smile

"Good job ethan" I smile at him, he looked up at me and back down. Still no emotion.

We all got into the car. I sat in the front seat while Ethan, Gabriel and Grayson sat it the back.

"Tonight we are going to a party mom and lizette is coming too" Grayson says

"Do you know when dad will be home?" Gabriel asks me "no, I think he is spending the night at floras"

"Oh ok" he sits back on his seat.

I hate flora. I hate her with all my heart. When my mother passed I realized all the time my dad was gone, was too see her.

My brother hates her, I hate her.

Anyone who tries to be my mother I despise how my dad moves on so quickly and how we were forced into losing someone we never wanted to.

We arrive at the party, Grayson and Gabriel walk into the crowd of drunk teenagers

I watched Ethan walk upstairs, while I stood by the door way, looking at a fan

Not even a dam fan satisfies me.

My body stayed in one movement, yet it decided it wanted to move

I caught myself walking upstairs, not opening any closed doors. I walked the same hallways continuously.

Thinking, the only thing I seem to have done right.

What would happen if my mom wasn't diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. What would happen if my dad never cheated

What would happen if I was happy.

My thoughts scattered when I heard a crash on the ground, as if someone threw a bookshelf on the floor. I made my way to the room it was coming from

I struggled to open the door because anxiety hovered over me

I opened the door to ae Ethan laying in the bed, a book shelf broken on the floor.

"Hey umm, I'm just going to clean this up" I say really being my only excuse to be with him.

I picked up the wood putting it in the side "I hope you realize I went through the same things, bout you have to get through them"

I watched form the side of my eye, while he propped his back watching me.

I picked up the last piece of cracked wood putting it in the side, my head started pouring with memories

Things I haven't thought of in years. My eyes grew tears. My body was in pain.

I rushed out the room because I didn't want Ethan seeing me like that. I closed my eyes hoping I would stop crying

My hands sat in the railing of the stair case while, I cried the seconds away.

I took a deep breath wishing to be home, I felt pressure on my back, I turned around to be hugged.

The next thing I know I was Ethan Dolans first hug in years.

I hugged back hoping both of us could realize it isn't our faults.

We never did anything wrong.