Senior Year

Only Forever

The car ride home was awkward. I sat in silence but my mind was screaming at me. What the hell was I doing. I lived such a carefree life and did whatever I wanted but this? Way too far. What was I going to tell my parents, or Alyssa, or Kaylee. Jesus Christ Ive really fucked up.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing. I just .. Demi what if people find out?" I asked, nervously.

"They won't. As long as you don't tell anyone. Not even Alyssa, okay? I know that's a lot to ask because I know she's your best friend but this HAS to stay between you and I, Emily." She said keeping her eyes locked on the road.

"I know. But this can't happen again, you know that right? This is too risky, even for me."

"Are you still going to be with Kaylee?" She asked glancing over at me.

"I don't know. I don't know what Id even tell her. I've never cheated before so I don't exactly know what to do in this situation. I can't come completely clean but I also can't face her everyday knowing what I just did. What WE just did."

We pulled up to my house and just sat there in sheer silence looking at my house. I listened to her breath moving in and out of her body and it was peaceful. Somehow, she still managed to be the calm in all the chaos. Yet, she was the chaos. I finally brought myself to look over at her. Her eyes locked with mine before she glanced down at my lips.

"Stop doing that." I stated.

"Doing what?" She smirked back at me.

"We're in my driveway, Demi. I can't kiss you right here. What if my mom were to see. She'd beat my ass and that's not a joke. She would literally walk out here and roundhouse my ass." I kinda laughed as I said it.

"Fine, then I'll get my goodbye kiss another time."

"No, you're not listening to me. I'll admit, I don't want to stop but this is dangerous and could ruin everything for us. Your career, my chance at my dream school. You've already put a Friday school on my record so now I have to dig myself out of that hole."

"Emily, calm down. I didn't send the Friday school to the office. I know how much college means to you. And if you want me to stay away, then fine. I will do my best. But you and I know damn well this is real and this is happening. Like it or not, I have feelings for you and you do for me. We didn't choose this, and we most definitely didn't ask for it, but it is what it is. I'll give you space, Emily, but I won't wait forever. I can't believe I'm saying this but I'll put everything on the line for you. You graduate in May and I'll no longer have a permanent position at Lincoln. We'll just be two people out in the world. Just think about it. Please."

"Just give me some time. That's all I ask." I said reaching for the door handle as she reached for my leg. I turned around and looked back at her.

"I can't wait forever, Emily."