I was never wanted

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by myglossd

by myglossd

It's all about her..

You never even saw the good side of me living

I asked if you loved me

You said you did

But did you actually show it?

No.

You didn't.

Things you said about me:
1. "You're so unlike her, why can't you be like her?"
2. "Look at how she acts compared to you"
3. "Get up from there! Why don't you wake up early like her?"
4. "You got a good score but can't you aim a little higher? Look at how she got a perfect score"
5. "Why are you always like this? Can't you change to be like her?"

Dear Mom,
I wasn't born to be compared to like a paper quiz they always ask to see for scores. I was born to be me. And to tell the truth? You never said anything good to me besides your "I love you's". I'm starting to feel like when I grew up you've also grown tired of me. And now you want to change your own child.

I followed everything you wanted without saying a word, I tried getting up even if I didn't want to, and I didn't even cry when you said so many things that hurt me.

Mom.

I love you.

But I just can't take it.

I wish I could tell you theese.

Sorry if you were expecting another happy chapter for me, I just didn't wanna hide anymore. I don't feel loved anymore and I feel like I've just been loving too much.. If you saw me happy just earlier, then pretend I'm still happy. I don't want you seeing me all sad and ranting about how terrible my life is.