Shot through the heart

Chapter 6

I watch as my dad tries to get answers out of Castiel. It worries me because I've been the best at torturing since I was sixteen. I don't want to torture Castiel because he's just being loyal and yet he stays polite, and maybe also because he's Gabriel's brother. "Chris, get in here and start your interrogation methods." My dad tells me and I sigh. I walk in and my dad walks out. I open a hatch and grab my torture tools. Taking a deep breath I turn around. "Castiel Novak, this is your last chance; tell us what we need to know." I demand and he stubbornly shakes his head. "I know your just trying to be loyal but I really do not enjoy torturing and yet I've got to do it, unless the interrogated talks." I tell him. "Then I'm sorry you have got to do this." Castiel tells me. "Me too." I say and I grab a hammer. "Castiel, what are the plans of the Novaks?" I ask and Castiel shakes his head. I swing my hammer and hit Castiel in his chest. I can hear a rib cracking and it breaks my heart a little. "Castiel please tell me what the plans are." I beg him. Castiel shakes his head and I swing the hammer again, another rib breaks. This goes on for a while before I decide to grab a knife. "Castiel tell me." I say and Castiel looks at the knife, fear evident in his beautiful blue eyes. I sit down in front of him, hiding the knife. "Castiel, the plans." I softly urge him to talk. "No, I will not betray my family." Castiel says and I notice the sweat on his forehead. Suddenly I'm not sure if I should use the knife, he seems terrified of it. I softly press the knife against his cheek and Castiel's breathing speeds up. I drag the blade from one side of his cheek to the side of his face, leaving a shallow cut. Castiel isn't breathing properly and he looks like he's far away. I slowly touch his shoulder but Castiel doesn't respond. "Castiel. Castiel! Cas!" I try calling out to him but he doesn't respond. I throw the blade away and also the rest of the tools. "Cas! Everything's okay." I softly tell him and I hug him. It seems like this is slowly bringing Castiel back and I start humming a song Dean used to sing when I was panicking. Castiel seems to relax and I pull back to look him in the face. "Are you okay now?" I ask, trying to show that I really care and not just pretend to. "I am okay now, thank you." He says and he looks at me. "What the hell happened?" asks Dean as he walks in. "I had a panic attack, somebody else once tortured me just for fun and the memories still hurt." Castiel explains. I notice how Castiel's staring at Dean and how Dean stares back at him. I quietly slip out of the room and let the two talk. Dean isn't the nicest to the Novak's but he seems to have a weak spot for Castiel, hopefully the same way I have a weak spot for Gabriel. I wonder how Gabriel is doing. Suddenly Sam comes running around the corner. "Chris! Gabriel just warned me, three Novaks are on their way to get Castiel." He tells me and I nod. "He's in the interrogation room, with Dean. They seem to have a weak spot for each other." I tell Sam and he nods. "Well, we better get ready to fight." Sam tells me and I nod. "Maybe Castiel escapes." I tell Sam and I wink at him. Sam smiles and so do I, but I feel like dying; I just tortured Castiel, Gabriel's brother. Will Gabriel ever forgive me? I hope he will but I don't deserve it. Whatever Gabriel chooses I will accept it. Suddenly guards rush around the corner, trying to take cover. A few bullet holes appear in the wall and Sam throws me down to make sure I don't get hit. "Sam! We need to get Dean from the interrogation room!" I shout over the sound of the guns and Sam nods. We quickly crawl towards the door and I slip inside. I pull my gun and point it at Castiel, not taking the safety off. "Castiel Novak, get up." I say and Castiel stands up. He walks over to me and I carefully open the door. "Do you want him dead?" Dean asks me and he closes the door with a bang. "Dean, it are his brothers and his sister." I say and Castiel opens the door to peer outside. "Raphael, no." Castiel suddenly shouts and he runs out. A gunshot sounds and Dean and I look at each other. We dart out and I see Balthazar holding Raphael's arm a little up, as if he's trying to prevent the bullet to hit its target. "Sammy." Dean says and I look over. Sam's on the ground, clutching the place where his neck meets his shoulder. I can see the blood seeping between his fingers. "Why did you shoot him? Castiel said no." Balthazar asks Raphael and I quickly kneel next to Dean and Sam. "It's a Winchester." Raphael answers. "There was no reason to shoot him, they let Castiel free already!" Balthazar shouts at him. I rip a piece from my shirt even though it won't help to stop the bleeding. "This is your problem Balthazar, you care about them." Raphael says. I take off my shirt and press that against Sam wound, knowing this will help better. "I don't care for them, I just care about this going fair and avoiding further conflicts. Do you think John will let his son go without killing some of us?" Balthazar asks Raphael. "We need a doctor! Get mom in here or Lucille!" I shout, some tears making their way down. "You're an idiot Balthazar." Raphael says. "Lucille is on her way." Dean says and I nod. "Let me help." Castiel offers but Raphael pulls him back. Sam grunts and his eyes flutter close. "Sam, no! Stay awake! Stay with us! Sam?! Sammy?!" I scream while sobs escape my mouth. Lucille arrives and she pushes me and Dean to the side so she can save Sam. I continue sobbing and Dean pulls me close, hugging me. "I will never forgive myself if he dies. Sammy can't die! Sammy don't die!" I sob and Dean starts to lead me away, but I want to stay with Sam. "Sammy needs me! Leave me Dean!" I shout but Dean doesn't let go and he forcefully leads me down the hallway. "Sammy!" I scream but I don't hear anything anymore. I sob and sit down on my bed. Dean hoists me up and leads me to the bathroom. He turns the tab open and gets a washing cloth. He wets it and he carefully washes my face and hands. After that he brings me back to my room and sits me down on my bed again. He walks to my closet and gets me a sweater. I put it on and hide my hands in the longer sleeves. Still crying I push myself against Dean. He puts his arms around me and hugs me tight. I smile even though I'm still crying. Adam walks in with tears in his eyes. "Is Sam going to be okay?" he asks and Dean opens his arms. Adam sits down next to Dean and Dean puts his other arm around Adam. We stay like that, I'm sobbing and Adam silently crying while Dean does his best to comfort us.