The Story Of My Life

Feelings

It was lunch break and I saw my classmate who has always been my classmate for 4 years now, she was a few inches taller than me, she has glasses and was wearing a jacket, and she was wearing our school uniform, I went to her and talked to her

"hi"

"hi"

we talked about how everything was going, if we were okay and some random things and we went outside of our classroom and just walked and talked along the hallway, while we talked i saw my old classmate that I always hung out with, I smiled at her and she smiled back but when I saw her I started to get nervous and its like I had butterflies in my tummy, but that can't be right, I'm straight ,I can't possibly l-like her, but mabye this is a normal feeling cause ive been feeling this way since last year, since we had to perform and were partners, mabye this is just a normal feeling i get whenever I pass by an old classmate.

Fastforward to the last subject

Finally, its the last subject,ughh I can't wait to get out of this prison, although today wasnt that bad because i met a new friend, lydia, and i wasn't alone at lunch like any other day, I was with Valerie, but yeah even though today wasn't at all bad, I still had my headache since this morning.

theres only 1 more minute of class, I wasnt even paying attention anymore, I was just staring at the clock

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2

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3

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5

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I don't know how long I was staring at the clock but I got startled at the bell when it rang, ughh Finally, i wanna go home noww. 

As i was walking down the hallway I then again saw my friend,Sam, who I saw earlier from lunch, I again had that same feeling from earlier, she smiled at me again and I smiled back, why is my heart beating so fast?? I wish it could stop...

At Maya's home

I'm still confused on why I felt like that whenever I see her, I can't like her, I'm straight,

I'm straight

I'm straight

I'm straight

I'm straight

I'm straight

I kept saying that to myself when suddenly my brother snapped me out of my thoughts, he looks ugly as usual but others wouldnt call him that, he was wearing a white shirt saying "sometimes" and blue shorts, he had brown eyes and hair like josh (josh is the character from Girl meets world)

"Maya, were gonna eat dinner" he said

"Okay" I replied

As I finished eating dinner I hurriedly cleaned my place up and went to my room, I was bored since there wasnt homework, so I just watched Carmilla, I was halfway through finishing season 2 but then it hit me, I ussualy get disgusted whenever two girls become a couple you know like doing couple things like the hand holding, cuddling and other stuff, but now it dosent seem to bother me, It seems like I wanted that kind of relationship no matter the gender,

Well...Maya mabye your b-

SHUT UP SUBCONCIOUS!!,I can't possibly be gay, I still like my guy friend
(A/N not mentioning the name),well if Im not gay mabye I'm bisexual?, no, no, no i can't what am I gonna do, How can I tell my family??, If I come out, I-I'll Lose my family!!!!, they can't accept me... Okay,okay Maya breathe, just breathe,your not bisexual, your straight and you don't like your friend Sam, you don't, Just sleep your only a kid and you dont need to stress over it, jusy relax and sleep.

I fell asleep a few moment after trying to relax and still confused about my feelings and who I am....

A/N hey guys!! I know this short but I really tried my best to create a long one and I'm not really good at Endings soo..yeah I didnt know what to write, hope you enjoyed!!

-M