The Love Of This World

the man of my dreams.

Men were created weak. Tell me the name of a man who doesn't look at a woman passing by him, he will always gaze atleast once (generally, not all men though). That is how weak they are. Ironic isn't it? The muscular, strong and huge men are weak. Touching the most sensitive topic in my heart which arouses fear within me. It shrinks me as a woman, lowers my confidence and buries my soul beneath the earth. Seclusion always brings enormous fear in me. It is better to be alone rather than being with someone who makes you feel lonely. I would love to meet someone through serendipity, he who will always empathize me (empathy-the forgotten sunnah). He will give me everything i need as in not a Michael kors handbag, huda beauty makeup products to pamper me but just fresh colourful flowers the sweetness of which will indicate me the love stored with his heart .He will fulfill my emotinal, mental hunger rather than a physical one. He will build a bridge of respect to reach the so called destination 'love'. To me personally, love has seven stages...the first one is attraction which is the lowest level of 'love'. Love is not something we witness these days, it is mere attraction that we foresee. The word 'love' is mentioned in over 90 places in the qur'an but sadly it does not define love but it talks about commitment. Commitment is something the opposite sex fears whereas women desire commitment. It is the essence of morals, principles and ideals. I like the idea of someone, somewhere is made for you forever. My eyes glimmer with hope and my heart dances with joy. It is like music to my ears. The elegance of a man begins from lowering his gaze and having clean intentions. We, woman are made to believe that men are trash but trust me that is not true. Every man won't cheat on you, disrespect you or not value relationships...oops sorry COMMITMENT. There maybe be a man capable of giving his all to one woman. The one who values love, commitment and loyalty. The one eagerly waiting for you to be on his priority list. But space is essential for a healthy relation too. There are still men who want to court you and own you in the halal and the right way which is approaching your wali (guardian generally father) and asking for your hand and taking you as his responsibility. Looking right into your father's eyes and assuring no harm upon his angelic daughter. The one who will take care of your body, mind and soul. Water your growth and watch you grow into the most beautiful tree ever. There are some who are prepared to love and are faithful in every way. That is the type of man i yearn for. The type of man i always pray for. The relationship where i can be sugary and effortless but also spicy and demanding. Where i have a mutual feeling that we are ferociously in need of true love and our journey is to jannah(paradise). So to my man,the man of my dreams as some dreams do come true....i pray You make me feel that your money is my money and my money is wholly my money. I pray you uplift me and believe that a relationship is not based on domination but partnership. There is a sort of connection that gives me happiness to have you as my potential partner. But i pray that Allah lends you at the right time. I want our love to be just like ai'shah and Muhammad(pbuh) or khadijah and Muhammad(pbuh). Everytime it evolves, it gets better, stronger and sharper. I pray that You are this one man with larger shoulders, bigger hands and broader mindset wherein you take me when i am too much of a woman or at my weakest that makes you feel less of a man. I pray that we celebrate and appreciate each other. I pray that you understand me even when i cannot understand myself. I pray that you console me when my advice cannot console me. I pray that every time your work is complete you are excited to drive back home just to see me again. I pray that i fall asleep while playing with your soft beard. I pray you protect me from all dangers and man up when you need to.   I hope our children look up to you as an example. Inturn i pray that i am your driving force. I hope you are just  like me as deep as the deepest waters where every drowning encounters a new discovery for my heart is like the strings of a guitar.....every string touched formulates a unique melody which came into existence just by a mere touch. I hope we are deeply compatible because surface compatibility is just not my thing. I hope you make me realize that i deserve to be loved irrevocably, inexplicably and unconditionally. I hope you make me feel that height is not something that matters in a woman. I pray  that you touch the parts of my heart that were untouched. My heart will be an open garden for you where you will be my regular visitor. I pray you are not checking girls out and intently waiting for 'the one' because if it is me, trust me you'd not be disappointed. To my man, where art thou? Wherever you are, i pray you are safe and sound. I pray that you exist. I pray that you pray for me as much as i do. I pray you are mine and i am yours. I pray that i am the moon of your life, your sun and your stars. I pray that the almighty has written your name beside mine because 'we created you in pairs.'(78:8) and pure men are for pure women and vice versa.

P.s: the above is not impossible, if Allah wills. So don't tell me that 'stop living in a wonderland' because if Allah wills....who knows?