Fifth Harmony x Camila Cabello Imagines

a/n

If you don't wanna read skip it. I really need to vent, so if you don't want to hear me vent you can just skip it.

So I've honestly been feeling kind of down lately. A lot has been going on with my family. I don't feel like being home anymore cause of constant arguing between my mom and sister. I love both of them to death but sometimes I feel like it's not even worth it half of the time. I feel so caught in the middle. Sometimes I just wanna run away for a few days and just turn off my phone. I feel alone to a point where I don't feel like no one is listening to me at times.

This is off topic but I've been feeling so insecure lately. I'm not the skinniest girl in the world but I've struggled with weight almost all my life. I've seen these girls with the perfect body and hope to get there. I push myself to where I have the motivation to do it, then I wear something that doesn't fit with my body and I get so down. And I know I can workout and workout to get there, but where you have a brother that calls you tubby you sometimes loose that motivation. I hope to one day love myself more to a point where I don't care what anyone says, it's gonna take time but I will get there.

This one is not anything bad but it makes my heart hurt when I think about it. So this coming year I will be graduating high school (class of 2019 whoop whoop!) and be moving to college. Now don't get me wrong College is a place for new experiences but im such a momma baby. My mom has 3 kids, a 21 year old, a 19 year old and me a 17 year old. My two older siblings still live at home but are doing their own thing. Now my moms been feeling like she's loosing her kids. She tells me how we're gonna leave her and forget about her. She sometimes feel like we don't appreciate her enough. Now out of me and my siblings I have a feeling that I'm gonna move away when it comes to college. And the hardest part for me is gonna be leaving her alone. Cause sometimes my mom does get lonely or sad that we're gone. If I leave to a friends house she always says she misses me. But she's always told me, if I ever get the opportunity to go away for college do it. She doesn't want me to be afraid of the world outside of San Antonio, that's all I've known. She wants me to explore and try new things. I always let her know that if that chance comes I'll take it.

I'm sorry that this was all over the place. Just a few things I needed to get off my chest. I'm a person who holds in their feelings. I don't express them as much as i need to. I'm a very private person when emotions come into play. I always have that hard shell that protects them from coming out. I'm sorry for venting, I know I may be annoying.....

But thank you for reading. <3