If you ever happen to read this, I just want to say that I kinda really fucking miss you right now.
What's killing me the most at the moment, is the fact that I have to stay away from you for another month, in a country I don't want to be in any longer than I already have, surrounded by my stepdad and people I met last week.
I wish I could call you, or even text you. I would email you but that would be pointless because I only have this laptop for a little while before I have to give it back, and also because I don't know your email address.
Also, before I forget to say it, I'm sorry. Because of me, you had to deal with all this trouble you could have avoided if you had just fallen for another girl. I'm sorry that I'm practically restricted from going to our main hang out spots, and sorry that I get in trouble a lot, which leads to me getting my phone taken away and then I somehow get taken to a different country with my stepdad, who isn't even really my stepdad anymore because my mom and him divorced years ago.
I don't quite understand why you like me, or how you find me the least bit interesting. I'm extremely lucky that whoever decides the fate of peoples lives allowed me to find someone like you. I'm also extremely lucky that you somehow still like me even thought we rarely see each other, though hopefully that'll change once school starts again.
You're the only thing that's been on my mind these past couple of months, and right now, in the middle of the night, with lightning flashing outside my window, all I can think of is how badly I miss you.
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