Having a boyfriend is supposed to be an amazing experience right? Both of you care about each other and talk to one another any time you get the chance to do so. You'll stay up late at night either talking to him or thinking about him. Every weekend you would look forward to being with him, just you and the guy you trust and gave your heart to. Both of you would do anything in the world to see the other smile and stay happy.
That's what relationships are supposed to be like, yet sadly, most don't turn out to have a happily ever after. Men can eventually get bored of the girl they are with, they might one day see a girl walking by with a better body and face than yours, a girl who oozes confidence and beauty. Maybe he'll get tired of constantly taking care of you and making sure that you're happy, he'll say that you don't care about him and are only using him when really it's the complete opposite.
The thing is that women can also have a play in unhappy relationships. We can get greedy, and expect too much from men. Sometimes, we make assumptions too quickly and later start to make assumptions off the assumptions we earlier made, causing us to stress about a problem that could have been solved if we just stopped assuming the worst and talked to our partner about what we are thinking about and how we feel.
There is a possibility that I'm overthinking at the moment though, seeing that the relationship I'm currently in won't exist in a couple days. The reason for this is that my boyfriend, whom I've been with for barely even a month, likes someone else, someone better. The girl he likes is smaller than I am, skinnier too. Everything she talks about is interesting and she never fails to keep a conversation going. That's the girl who my boyfriend now has interest in.
I have no hard feelings against him though. Any decision he makes is fine with me as long as its not dangerous and it makes him happy. The only reason i'm upset is because I know it'll be hard seeing him with another girl. I'll have to talk to him everyday with a smile on my face, knowing that he's now wrapped around some other girls finger. I'll still sit at the same lunch table as him, I'll still hang out together with our friends and occasionally joke around. I'll also still be painfully jealous when he talks to other girls and smiles at them the same way he would smile at me.
This is my first relationship, my first boyfriend, he was my first I love you, though not my first kiss. I thought that if we were ever to break up, I would cry for days, stay in bed and possibly skip school for a couple days. Though when I heard he liked another girl, I wasn't angry at anybody, I didn't feel the need to cry or make a big deal out of it. All I felt was a slight sting in my body. I felt the kind of pain that was only painful enough to notice it was there. The kind of pain that after a while, it got annoying. That's all I felt.
I wrote this a couple months ago, and have completely cut ties with this person. I'm no longer jealous, and have found someone who cares about me just as much as I care about them, if not even more.
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