It's been a while and,
things have changed. Whether it's for the better or for the worse, I don't know. On the night of my birthday, I make a mistake, one that I made fully knowing the consequences that would come with it. The consequences being that I know attend a private christian school and I'm strictly forbidden from contacting anyone that I consider a friend, that is until I somehow make new ones.
That's the thing though, my friends, I thought of them as family, people who I would do anything for, and I know they'd do the same for me. And now, because of one fucking mistake I made, they're gone. Even better, I wouldn't be surprised if they hated me right now. Because of what I did, and what they participated in, I'm now the reason they're in a great deal of trouble. It's because of me that the people closest to me, no probably want nothing to do with me. And I don't blame them, not one bit.
One thing i'm going to miss for more than a long while, is the person I love, and he's the only one that's ever really loved me back the way I needed to be. The way he treated me, almost seemed like he worshiped me. When I looked into his eyes, and he looked into mine, I could feel every bit of love and adoration he felt for me. Everywhere he touched me was left warm and tingly, and now i'm left cold. It's him that'll keep me up at night the longest for the rest of my days, until one day, maybe tomorrow, or maybe in my next life, I'll find someone with just as much emotion in their eyes as his did.
Though I know for a fact that i'm not going to change the way I live my life all because I've been transferred to some private christian school, I hope I can at least make the best out of what I have left, and start my life over at square one.
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