Takeoff//e.g.d

IX

 Ethan hasn't texted me yet. Something must be wrong, according to society. But sometimes society is right. In this case, Now may be a good time to start worrying. After multiple hours of waiting for the echoing ping to come from my phone, I decided it was time to go on with my life. It's Ethan Dolan, theres no way in hell that man was actually interested in a fangirl. That kind of things only happen in fan fiction.

Ren and I have been exploring London recently. We have really been trying to actually enjoy the city and not try to see everything in 3 days like many other tourists would. Yesterday after she told me about her and Grayson she showed me all the places she would go to when she would come with her family to London on vacation or holiday. The first place we went to was the London Eye. It reminded me a lot of being back home with my mom. We loved going on Farris wheels! We waited in line until it was our turn to get on. When we got to the top of the wheel the view was amazing. Its was truly breathtaking. I had seen pictures, videos and movies that shared this view but it was way better in person. The skyline stretched out for miles. Everyone seemed so small from where we were. As I stared down at the people who littered the streets of London I couldn't help but wonder where they were going. There are so many different lives that are crossing paths. These brief interactions could be meaningless but to others it may change their lives forever.

After we got off the beautiful London Eye, we stoped at her favorite restaurant, Nando's. Being the directioner I am, I instantly thought of Niall. The whole time we were out I couldn't help but wonder what Grant was up to. He was probably hooking up with some British model or something. I quickly dismissed the thought and enjoyed my dinner with Ren. I won't be here forever so i have to make this trip count.

*REN'S POV*

Everyone has been acting weird since the show. Grayson told me something was wrong with Ethan but he won't tell him. Grayson has also been acting weird with me too, as if he was hiding something. Olivia checked out mentally a while ago. I think its about Ethan. And Ethan is probably upset about Olivia. I wish they would both grow some balls and talk it out. But nooooooo, I have get my hands dirty or nothing will get done around here. The whole day I had time to come up with another one of my genius plans due to the fact that Olivia's mind was in Asgard or something. This one may not be as good because I didn't have my partner in crime to help me out with it. Damn I really miss Grayson. Well at least we all know who wears the pants in the relationship. After we came home from exploring Olivia claimed to be exhausted and went to go take a shower then go to sleep. It was now or never.

I went down to the basement and found my old study whiteboard and markers. Im gonna find a way to fix this, even if I have to stay up all night.

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I woke up the next morning on the floor with the marker still in my hand. I looked up at the board and smiled at my masterpiece. If they doesn't work then I'm not sure what will.

*GRAYSON'S POV*

It's been a long couple of days. I got sick again but thats nothing new. What's actually new is that Ethan has been acting like a child. He wont eat, I don't think he's sleeping well and all he does is lay there. He wont even film! And its Saturday! We need to upload on Tuesday! If he keeps up like this Im gonna have to do a solo London vlog and it may be the most awkward video ever.

"Alright that's it! What the fuck is up Ethan?!" He couldn't even meet my eyes.

"Its nothing." His voice was low and lacked any emotion. The last time he was like this was after Kilana. The worry began to grow as I walked over to his bed and sat down next to his still body.

"Ethan this isnt nothing. You love London but your laying here begging for pity. Well suck it up buttercup we need to get out of this hotel." He didn't utter a word. I got up and walked over to the phone. After finally being about to speak to someone I ordered Ethan's go to breakfast that never fails to satisfy him, pancakes.

I grabbed my phone off the counter and took it with me to the bathroom. I unlocked it and played my very creatively named playlist called "shower". I opened the glass door and stepping to the steaming water. I stood there for about five minutes with the water therapeutically hitting my back. Whenever Ethan gets like this I feel like I need to help him. We've been under a lot of pressure lately and it was a matter of time beer one of us shut down.

When I got out of the shower I dried myself off and out on an olive green t-shirt, light wash distressed jeans and my black converse and walked out expected to see Ethan in the same position as I left him. But to my surprise he had gotten up to open to door for the room service and was patiently waiting for me to finish up so he could do his business. When one of us gets like this its the small things that count. Sadly, this isn't the first time that something like this has happened while we are travel or working on big projects. we have some big stuff planned for your careers that we're working on that no ones knows about yet. Its stressful having to keep this huge secret to ourselves, not even Cameron knows! I sat down on the bed and turned on the TV to find myself watching a British mourning show where they were interviewing some marvel actors because the new Avengers movie was coming out soon. i opened up one of the trays and began to dig in. I forgot how much i loved international food!

When Ethan finally out from the shower, he looked at me and gave me a soft smile that faded quickly. I felt bad for him. I know what it feels like to be where he is emotionally and mentally. Its not easy getting so wrapped up in a person and you don't know where they're at emotionally. Everyone thinks that guys are always the ones who are playing "games", but some of us still want what some people call a "fairytale ending". Its just so hard to find someone with genuine and transparent intentions in a world full of snakes. But just like he was there for me, I'm going to be right by his side during this whole thing.

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I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW ITS BEEN MONTHS AND IM SO SORRY!!! i was swamped with school and i finally got on summer break and finally have enough  time to put out content that I'm happy with! Please bare with me and hopefully I will finally upload on a regular-ish schedule. But love you guys so much and thank you so much for you patience and i really hope you guys enjoyed this chapter and buckle up honey because theres a big storm coming (;