Was i not enough?(MoonSun)

The Past is the past

We were at the playground in the park near our house when I decided I would do it today "Krystal... I'm in love with you please be my girlfriend..." I confessed to my best friend. Silent came, she stopped her swing that she was on and looked at me she had this confused look and a grin at first "Are you-you joking or what?" She said looking right into my eyes. "What! no, I'm not joking I'm serious about this I love you,  like more than friends." I confessed again. She looked at me and lean until I could feel her soft lips on mine.

Krystal became what she really wanted to be a model and soon enough she might become a singer... Even though it was hard for me when she goes for shootings and stuff like that. I still let her go because it was her dream.

*Weeks have passed...*
"Who is she, Krystal?!?"

"It's just amber. She's just a friend... What's with you?!"

*Months have passed...*

"Krystal want to go on a date? it's been a while... And I'm sure you need a break from your pictorials."
"Sorry byul I have a pictorial today and it's an important one."
"That's ok babe... maybe next time?"
She went on her way and as for me, I stayed home.

I talked to her manager and ask when she will be done for her shootings for the pictorials because I was planning a dinner for us but her manager said she didn't have any photoshoot for this week.
I thought about where could she possibly go all this week.
Wait... No, it couldn't be... AMBER! I felt anger... She's been cheating on me... I waited for her all night until my eyes gave in and slept
*Next day*
I was asleep at the table where we were supposed to have dinner. I threw out the food that was in there and then threw the plate aggressively at the sink and it
Broke...
I tried to not think about it so I went to the park far away I went into my car and drove there... I trued concentrate about whats around me try to relax of all the stress I have at home. I was walking for a while then decided to go and hang out with one of my best friends.
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Hey, Seulgi what's up? Can we meet up later I mean if you're free?

Seul-gi 😋 ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

um... I don't know, I have a lot of important things I have to do today...hahaha just kidding meet me at the mall at 10 ( A/N what I mean was 10 minutes) 

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we went to our usual meeting place in our favorite cafe. We would always go there after school because we have nothing to do and then our house was close to each other that why we became really close together. We meet each other and ordered our thing and I told her what happened about me and Krystal she was pretty shocked about what had happened and supported me as a good friend she is. We went and shop for a while I bought all that I need the new pair of white Adidas shoes and some clothes found in some of the shops. I can always count on seulgi for things like this. It was actually relaxing just thinking about nothing but something for yourself.

Some will say your selfish but, Sometimes being selfish isn't too bad. Don't misunderstand. I just want to be free.

Afte that long day I went home and look at the doorstep her shoes isn't there. She hasn't come back yet... Krystal why are you like this I gave it all to you but you only broke me...

I texted her many times and didn't reply even once...

Sometimes I think to my self, are you happy? don't you feel guilty? or you just don't care? maybe that's why you don't care anymore or maybe I'm just not enough...  is it that? or you only wanted my money? I want you to be happy, sometimes I want to have that happiness that you make for yourself. But I know it won't last, someday your happiness will fade and will reveal your responsibility and will lose lots and especially the one that you didn't priorities.

But as for me I will do everything for my love once and I could forget the whole thing and act dumb, but someday I will wake up from the truth eventually and realize a lot of stuff but I won't regret this because I love her so much.

She came back late at night about 2:30 am and I was watching TV and heard the front door open I stayed in my spot because I didn't know what to say to her. I didn't want to tell her right away I need to see if she is actually cheating on me, I need proof.

she went into our room and change her clothes and went back out to the living room. she saw me just watching I didn't face her or anything. "hey babe want to go out tomorrow?  I'm free" Kristal said with a soft voice I could never ignore that voice it gets me every damn time. I turned around and see her in the kitchen eating the leftover pizza I ordered earlier I smiled it was fake. " Of course babe where do you want to go?" to the new shop in the mall. We continue to make our plan and after I went to bed and start to think when do I want this to stop I don't want to get hurt even more but I still can't handle her leaving me I don't know anymore! and soon my body gave in and put me to sleep.

We went on our date and went home after that she had to leave I questioned her about it but she didn't say anything I asked her the second time and she  sounded really angry almost shouting at me " Just somewhere ok?! just sleep ill be back soon I tried to grab her hand and lean for a kiss to stop her from leaving but she pushed me aggressively and her went trough my hair and she was stroking it slowly " im sorry baby I didn't mean that I just have a lot im my mind ok?"

she lest me there sitting on the floor... crying...

I need to talk to her...

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hey guys how has it been? also im a little late but happy 4th anniversary to mamamoo im so proud of them they stayed strong together. And we all moomoos should support and stan them till the end no matter what!

Anyway, this is a really weird and boring chapter sorry for was just tired and it late right now its like 1 am so if there is something wrong with this chapter sorry.

also sorry for the misspelling for all of my chapter and yea and also my grammar I have bad grammar English is my second language but all in all thanks for reading and always support MoonSun!!! BYe mOOmoOs