pretty | jung jaehyun

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jung jaehyun,

i haven't slept tonight. i just spent the whole night staring at the ceiling until my eyes burned.
i tossed and turned, all sorts of thoughts
keeping me awake.
i thought about you most of the time, though. i kept thinking about what you did yesterday. you said you'd finish the book but you returned it instead. why did you do that? why did you lie to me? also, where is the spark in your eyes? they've been looking so empty these days, like two holes carved into your face.
is it because of me? maybe i'm just too nosy and obsessive.
maybe i'm too ugly and seeing
me bothers you.
i understand.
i too would be sickened by my
appearance, if i were somebody else.

what can i do to make you see me differently, jung jaehyun?