how to get over him

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when you're outside in the middle of the night with your best friend burning the old pictures you have with him and the poems he wrote you and the little teddy bear he won for you at the carnival that you've slept with for months, make sure you don't breathe in the smoke because you'll cough so hard you'll throw up and then you'll be left crying and shaking and wondering how he still manages to make you feel sick even though he's not around anymore.