Thoughts?

Daddy....

I just wanna know what I did wrong. I tried so hard to make you happy. But it just wasn't ever enough for you. I just wanted to be myself but you didn't want me to be. You wanted me to be this perfect child that I couldn't be. I tried SO GOD DAMN HARD to be what you wanted. But I wasn't what you wanted and cause of that you didn't want me at all. I'm not enough for anybody. Never was and never will be. If there is one thing that I have learned from you it is to never trust ANYBODY at anytime. You have caused me to be who I am. You have caused me to cut, cry myself to sleep, try to kill myself, and not want to eat. I don't want to go out in public cause I'm so dang scared of being judged. I don't want to open up to my own family and friends cause I'm scared they won't want me anymore. I don't want to be alive cause I don't want to be judged anymore. And guess who has caused all of this. You have dad. You have caused damage. You have caused physical and mental damage. I am hurt, alone, damaged.