𝐁𝐓𝐒 𝐋𝐘𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐒 𝐈

140503 at dawn

Hangul

Agust D
세상과의 단절 집을 떠난 후엔 감정
소모하는 게 싫어진 19살 나의 관점
에서 봤을 때 연습생
생활은 거의 만점
덕분에 생긴 대인기피증
인간관계는 빵점
항상 준비 해놓지 두 개의 가면
방어적인 모습 뒤 본
모습을 숨겨 가며
철저히 나를 숨겨
죄인이 된 듯 마냥
감옥 같던 숙소 밖을 단
한 발짝도 못나갔네

멀어져 가네
주위의 친구 가족 그게 뭐든지 간에
머물지 못하고 내 곁을 스쳐 지나가
인간관계란 과녁에 화살은 아직 빗나가

외롭지 않은 척 괴롭지 않은 척
괜히 괜찮은 척
괜시리 열심히 강한 척
하며 내 앞에 놓아 버린 벽 들어오지마
난 이 넓은 바다의 섬 날 버리지마

Romanized

Agust D
sesanggwaui danjeol jibeul tteonan huen gamjeong
somohaneun ge silheojin yeolahopsal naui gwanjeom
eseo bwasseul ttae yeonseupsaeng
saenghwareun geoui manjeom
deokbune saenggin daeingipijeung
ingangwangyeneun ppangjeom
hangsang junbi haenohji du gaeui gamyeon
bangeojeogin moseup dwi bon
moseubeul sumgyeo gamyeo
cheoljeohi nareul sumgyeo
joeini doen deut manyang
gamok gatdeon sukso bakkeul dan
han baljjakdo motnagatne

meoreojyeo gane
juwiui chingu gajok geuge mwodeunji gane
meomulji mothago nae gyeoteul seuchyeo jinaga
ingangwangyeran gwanyeoge hwasareun ajik bitnaga

oeropji anheun cheok goeropji anheun cheok
gwaenhi gwaenchanheun cheok
gwaensiri yeolsimhi ganghan cheok
hamyeo nae ape noha beorin byeok deureoojima
nan i neolpeun badaui seom nal beorijima

Translation

Breaking off from the world, after leaving home
At the age of 19,
I didn’t want to consume my emotions
In my perspective,
My trainee life was 100 out of 100
But sociophobia develops and my human relations is 0
I always prepare two masks
Hiding my true self
Behind the defensive image
I thoroughly hide myself,
As if I’m a criminal
I couldn’t take a step outside the dorm
That was like a prison

Drifting away
Friends, family or anyone around me
They can’t remain beside me so they brush past me
The arrow still misses the target marked “human relations”

Pretending not to me lonely, pretending not to be in pain
Pointlessly pretending to be okay,
Pointlessly pretending to be strong
Don’t climb over the wall I’ve built in front of me
I’m the island in this vast ocean, don’t abandon me