Adopted By Diall

15. I'm sorry...

"Niall, Maybe we should call it off" I say, and took off my engagement ring. I handed it to him. Now I was crying, and sobbing uncontrollably.

"Demi, Please! don't do this!" he said between sobs. "I love you, but is seems you love her" I cried.

"Demi you need to know the truth!" He cried.

"What? That you never really loved me? that you still love her?" I say. This is hurting me so much, I love him more than anything.

"No!"

"Niall, I don't want to hear it!" He cried more. His hair was messed up, his nose, and cheeks were red as well as his eyes.

He walked passed me, and picked up the biggest piece of glass. He then walked to the door.

*Flashback*

"So you're telling me you used to self harm too?" I asked. "One time, and the only thing that will make me do it again is if I get hurt so badly that it will make me do it" He said. "Likee..?" I ask. "I don't know, I guess that when it hurts so bad, and I can't describe how much it does" He said. "Can you give me an example?" I ask. "Well, let's just say I ask you to marry me, you say yes, and they you call it off" Niall said. "Niall, I'll never do that" "You promise?" "I promise"

*End of flashback*

Oh no. Niall was opening the door, wiping his tears with his hand, and grabbing hard the glass with his other hand.

"Niall..No!" I yelled. He didn't listen, he just took a few steps.

"Niall don't do it!" I yelled again. He looked at me with sad eyes, and quickened his pace, and went to the guess room next door. I went running over to him, luckily, the door was opened, but I can't say the same of the bathroom door. I went over to it.

"NIALL! PLEASE! DON'T DO IT!" I say trying to open the door, when I clearly knew it wasn't going to open.

"YOU PROMISED" He yelled back. I had many tears right now. I just couldn't bear to see him like this. I couldn't imagine what he was doing inside there.

"I KNOW! I'M SO SORRY, ITS JUST THAT, IT HURT ME SO MUCH SEEING YOU WITH HER!! JUST PLEASE DON'T DO ANYTHING YOU'RE GOING TO REGRET" I yelled back. My throat was aching. He opened the door slowly, and I hugged him as tight as I could.

"Did you do it?" I whispered. He shook his head.

"Good" I say.

"Did you?" He asked still hugging me, but softer, I had my face buried in his chest.

"No, I was ready to" I say. He started to sob, and I did the same.

"Niall, I'm really sorry I made you have the thought of doing it again" I said in between sobs.

"I'm the one who should be sorry, I did this to you, when I knew you had a tough past, but can you please just hear me" He said calming down.

I nodded, he carried me bridal style to bed, and placed me at the edge of the bed carefully. He layed down across the bed taking all the space that was left. He had his face to the level of my stomach. He rolled my shirt up, just below my bra, and started drawing circles on my flat stomach, Yes my stomach is flat. I shivered.

"Sorry" He said. I shook my head, and ran my fingers through his blonde hair. He started to draw circles again.

"So tell me what happened"

"Well I had just finished buying our ice cream, and then someone was blocking my way, It was Annie. She asked me if we could start again, I was just about to tell her I had a fiancé, but she kissed me, I was to shock to even pull away. But when I did, you were already running, so I tried to catch up, but you had already left. I drove home as fast as I could and you already know what happened next." He said. He was still drawing circles, and I was still running my fingers through his hair.

"I'm sorry, I didn't listen to you" I said.

''You were upset , I understand" He said.

He placed his lips on my stomach.

Oh no.

He bubbled his lips, and I started laughing, that I pulled his hair.

"Demi, you know that when you pull my hair, you turn me on right?" He said, I smirked.

"Oh really?" I ask. I patted the space next to me, indicating for him to lay there, which he did. I sat up, and placed my legs on both sides of his stomach. I kissed him, and he kissed back, but pulled away. I sat in his hard stomach.

"What? You don't want some DemDem love?" I ask.

"Hell yeah! But before, do you mind having this?" He said, giving me the engagement ring.

"Not at all" I say, and placed my hand above his chest. He put the ring on me, and kissed me.

"What if I make it up to you?" I say in the most sexy voice.

What's really special about Niall, is that when we have sex, he's not like the most of the guys who only care about how they feel, and not how the woman feels. I'm not saying I've had sex with lots of guys.

Niall was actually the first one who I did it with, and I'm actually his first one too. Now look at us, I don't regret a bit about that day. It was one of the most special days in my whole life time. He actually cares about how I feel, and most importantly he makes me feel loved. Him and I don't have sex, we make love.

"Wouldn't mind at all" He said.