Sound, Colour, Smell of Loneliness

Sound

 Lonely as always.

No one's there to understand me...

        Sometimes being lonely is annoying, it's like someone shouting from the bottom of their lungs, making you realize that even you make friends, make them closer to you, they still can't hear, or feel the truth, that you're not happy, because showing and feeling are different from each other.

        It's like the buzzing of hundreds of sirens from everywhere, but those noises are can't be heard by anyone, can't be reached by the ears of my loved ones, especially the family I'm with. Because they're too deaf to notice it, to hear it. 

       Even if its ear-splitting, thunderous enough to deactive my ability to hear, I can still stand. Even if I want to vanish it, I dont want it anymore.

      Sometimes there's too much silence. It's like a high-pitched silence. That silence is exasperating, it's too much...

      That only the drops of blood streaming through every inch of my blood vessels on my entire body

      Not even a single noise, or a voice saying,

  "You're not worthless"

  "You're not" 

      But there's nothing...

      Nothing...