Even A White Rose Has A Black Shadow

Chapter 5

More than 80 reads, already?! It just feels sooo unreal to me that someone out there is reading my story! Thank you so much, this seriously means a lot to me:) I just wanted to give you a quick update - I can't promise to post regularly in the next two weeks because I'm going on vacation! But I will try my best to find some time at the pool / beach to write a little! I still didn't want to leave you without a new chapter because I myself can't even handle that cliffhanger there:D So here we go ...

M. x

After having been in a state of total numbness for the whole length of the first song I finally got back to all my senses when Little Black Dress came on. I started to sing along and jumped up and down. The crowd was going crazy and I loved the whole feeling of it! It all felt like a huge adrenaline rush and I didn't want this to end! However, my second little heart attack was kicking in, when the boys started to walk down the catwalk and were getting closer and closer to us! 'I wanna see the way you move for me, baby' And all I could look at was the way Harry did his weird but absolutely adorable dance moves wearing an equally weird but probably crazily expensive button up with flowers on it and a headscarf that was presumably even more expensive. And in that moment I could just smile from ear to ear because even looking like a hobo with a weakness for designer clothing this man was the most handsome creature on this planet! The long floppy curls that really needed a trim, his breathtakingly beautiful green eyes and the way he showed off his perfect teeth with a cute smirk literally took my breath away. Maybe Harry wasn't even as flawless as I myself found him to be but he was one of those people where the character was showing through his looks. It was shining right from his beautiful inside out - corny but true - and this was the reason why no one could ever be more beautiful than him because Harry Styles had the greatest character that you'd find in a human being. I had absolutely no doubt about that and I didn't even have to talk to him to be so sure.                        The next song was 'Kiss You' and the boys, who had been in the middle of the runway for Little Black Dress finally came up to our area and the girls around us went mental screaming at the top of their lungs. And then there he was standing right in front of me and I couldn't even join the other girls cheering his name because all I could do was admire him. His presence was just mesmerizing in a way! And then he looked in our direction and Em started squealing like crazy and waved as if she tried to catch the attention of an airplane or something. But I just grinned like some crazy fool because this was just so unreal. His solo started "Oh tell me tell me tell me how to turn your love on, you can get get anything that you want", and right on that last word he grabbed his crotch and we made eye contact for the very first time! Dark emerald meeting dark sapphire! And I just started shaking my head and raised my forefinger like a scolding teacher because of him teasing all the poor girls in the audience. Harry looked at me in surprise and put his hand on his heart as if asking 'Me?!'. 'Stop teasing', I mouthed giggling and he laughed walking away when his solo was over but turning back around to mouth a short 'Never'. This was when Emelie grabbed my arm jolting it like crazy. "Oh my fucking gooood! He hasn't even been on stage for a quarter of an hour and he fucking talked to you?! Hell, this night is going to be interesting! I swear it was a flirt!", my best friend rambled staring at me wide eyed. I started laughing "Oh Em, please! It's Harry Styles, he is like this with everyone! Stop keeping my hopes up and concentrate on Niall!" She frowned and said "Girl, you can't fool me! Stop acting all cool, I know you have a mental breakdown on the inside right now! He talked to you!!! Harry freaking Styles talked to you! That's my girl!" I couldn't hold back a squeal any longer which was very unlike me. "Oh hell, I can't believe it! He actually diiiiid!" We turned our attention back to the five boys on stage and started dancing around throwing our hands up every now and then and singing to each other making funny gestures. Harry hadn't come back yet but I still had a lot of fun witnessing Em trying to flirt with Niall shamelessly. She did the whole routine - from twirling her hair to biting her lip and screaming his name in frustration. But he just went on acting like the cutest ten year old waving every now and then at all of us. Em turned to me pouting "You know what? I'm sexually frustrated! Sexually frustrated because of all this hotness on stage today", she screamed in my ear and I couldn't refrain from laughing at her. "I tell you what you are - you are a fan-girl! I clearly converted you to be a fan-girl today!", I screamed back in her ear. She looked at me all cocky "Tzz, that wasn't you, girl! It's this Irish lad acting like a child but looking like a stupid sex god!" I just shook my head loving this girl for being the most honest, weirdest and funniest person ever!                                 When the song was over Liam said some thank you's while the other boys grabbed something to drink and Harry walked around waving at fans and blowing them kisses being the cutest little cupcake like always. But when he neared us he pointed at me and this time I was the one to put my hand on my chest acting all innocent. And then he pointed to his eyes with his fore and middle finger before pointing back at me again. Then he turned back around, did a little pirouette and bowed down before screaming 'Wembley Stadium, make some noise!' and we all screamed as loud as we could - cause that's basically what Harry Styles does to girls all over the world ... making them scream his name! And he didn't even have to try hard to get all those females to love him, he just needed to be himself. I could still not handle his voice that sounded even hotter now that he was a little out of breath than it did in interviews or stuff. And I almost hoped for the audience to keep quiet so that I could hear him even better - almost.                                 And then Why Don't We Go There started and the boys ran up to the main stage. Em and I went back to our own little dance party soon joined by Gabby and Lou the two girls we had met earlier that evening. When Rock Me started the four of us went absolutely mental doing a little bit of headbanging here and there - probably annoying the girls around us like crazy ... but hey, why can't we all just have a little fun together?! - and playing air guitars feeling like proper rock stars! The boys came back to our area and Liam gave us a big smile and thumbs up when he saw us going crazy. When Harry walked past us he did this 'I see you thing' again and I just had to stick my tongue out at him giving him a mischievous look. When he laughed at me his little dimples showed off and my heart just missed a beat. "Oh god, can he stop acting like there's only one girl in this whole stadium?!", I heard a girl on our left hissing. What? She couldn't possibly be talking about me right now, could she? "No he can't because she looks freaking gorgeous having a ton of fun while you keep giving every girl in here hateful stares looking like grumpy cat instead of enjoying their music!", Em turned to her, giving her a full on bitch stare and confirming my thought that the girl was actually talking about me. Oh hell no, please no cat fight, Em was the best when it came to sticking up for me but I didn't really want her to show off her skills right now. So I just tapped her shoulder lightly and said "Uhm, I guess it's best if we all just enjoy it, right?", and then I added whispering in her ear, "I swear Niall was just checking you out!" And Emelie turned her attention back to the show. God, I just hated the fact that some girls are so jealous when it comes to the boys. And it was not like Harry was paying me that much of his attention, right?                                         When Don't Forget Where You Belong was playing, Em and I realized, that we had totally forgotten about the sign and got it out of her backpack so I had it ready when the boys performed Live While We're Young right in front of us and when Harry was glancing in our direction I held it up for him to see. When he realized it he looked at me and then checked out his hands in confusion. I laughed and then held one of my tiny hands right in front of my face, placing the heel of hand right at my chin. This was a thing that Em and I used to do when we were younger. She was one to have huge hands and they covered her whole head while mine just stopped at the level of my eyebrows. At first Harry looked at me bemused but then he seemed to get what I was doing and held his hand the same way that I did and it didn't just cover all of his beautiful face but also most of the crazy mop he called hair. Then he just grinned at me and blew me a kiss! When there was no familiar squealing on my right I turned to Emelie and realized right away that something was totally wrong with her! She didn't jump around or sing along, she just stood there, staring at the boys her skin being white as a sheet. "Em, what's wrong?!", I asked afraid of her answer because I felt that I already knew what she'd say. "My kidney! It's just getting too cramped up here, El!" I immediately grabbed her hand and squeezed it. "Oh god, no! But honey, if you want to get out, we can go! It's alright! When it's your kidney again then we shouldn't take this easy, alright?", I asked being very worried for my best friend. Emelie was not one to ever complain about physical pain, but when she did I knew it was bad - very bad! She has had an emergency operation two years ago, where the doctor's had realized that something was wrong with one of her kidneys. It only did forty percent of the work it was supposed to do because it was three times the size of a normal kidney and the pressure in it was not enough anymore for the gigantic kidney. Since then she had had a lot of problems with it but in the past six months nothing bad had happened anymore. So this was a shock to both of us. She looked at me concerned and said apologetically "It's just that I need to get out of this! I just need a little more space, you know? But we can't get out of here! There's absolutely no way to get through this crowd without getting even more crushed." Looking around I realized that she was right and I then looked up to the security guard that had smiled at our crazy dancing a few times today and I waved at him, at first he didn't see me but then he walked up to us and leaned in closer to ask what was wrong. "My friend has problems with her kidney and we need to get her out of here but she can't go through the crowd, that just won't work out!" He just nodded and took a quick glance at Emelie realizing as well that something wasn't right with her. "Will you go with her?" I nodded not even having to think for a second. "But then the two of you will be out, you can't watch the rest of the concert. When I get you over here then you two will be either led out of the stadium or if she needs medical attendance then my co-worker will bring you to the emergency room!" "I don't need a doctor or anything. I just need space", Emelie said. And with this the security guard waved at one of his colleagues and the two of them helped us over the barrier. I heard Lou and Gabby screaming our names but we were already guided along the catwalk by two guards to get out of Wembley Stadium. When I was looking up to the stage I saw Zayn and they were singing the last lines of C'mon C'mon and then there was Harry and for a second the thought of leaving right now, leaving him, just hurt but then I took a look at my best friend and I knew that this was the right thing to do because she would have done anything for me so I would always be there for her. Just when we had passed all the guys I heard a loud wolf-whistle behind me but in this moment we were already through a fence and I couldn't look back anymore. I couldn't get one last glance of the man who I had secretly given my heart to - feeling like a foolish little girl. Even though the night was over already I was still sooo happy for this experience and this opportunity and ... The walky-talky of one of the men who was with us cracked and we heard a  muffled voice "Get them to 250! And make sure that someone is with them to take care after the show".