Remember me? #Wattys2018

Going home

I didn't know how to feel. At one moment i am so happy that she woke up and that i got her back but in next she doesn't remember me and it is like all of the things we went through disappeared. 

"Izzy, it is me Matt."

I didn't know what else to say. I thought she is screwing with me. Doctor pushed me aside and started asking her questions to she what she can remember and what not. And it turns out that i have the worst luck ever. She doesn't remember anything from the past tree years. Just little before we met. She doesn't want me next to her. She is afraid of me. Doctor said that she is recovering and if it keeps that way she will be out of hospital in few days. And it was true. Even tho she was afraid of me i stayed there in room with her and sitting in a distance i try to explain to her what happened. When my dad and our friends started coming to see her it made her scared even more so i asked them to give us some space. I explained to her how we met and how tings turned out, how we moved in together and how we got engaged. Just a short story so she knows how things are. But when i told her that we moved in together and that i am going to take her to our house she made it clear that she is not going with a stranger in a house that she don't know. It hurts, but i take a deep breath and try to stay calm. Some how we made a deal that i am going to stay in a guest room while she is going to be sleeping in our master room. Hey it is better than her refusing to come at all.
In about three days she was allowed to go home. I packed all of her things and we headed home. She set up some rules while we are in car.

"So we made a deal that we re sleeping in a different rooms. Right?"
"For now." 
"Right!?"
"Right."
"And i don't want you to touch me before you ask me, i mean i only know you for what four days."
"Technically ..."
"Oh, you know what i mean."

I just nodded my head and sigh. 

"You insisted on those nicknames for me and i am going to let you use them."
"Oh, you mean like sweetie, beautiful, babe, wifey?"
 

With each nickname i got closer to her and pretended that i am going to kiss her.
She starts to push me away and pretend that she didn't want me to do that but she couldn't hide her giggles. God how i missed them.

"Yes that things, but don't overuse them."

I nodded again.

"You are going to help me remember all of the things but you have to be patient with me."
"Of course i am going to help, i already thought of a plan how we are going step by step of reminding you of everything."
"Great."

It was a silence for a moment. She is staring out the window and i got  a flash back of a night when everything went wrong. I am extra careful right now, constantly checking everything around us. Doctor said that she could remember everything in a short time, or she would need some time, we never know. She still have her cast on her arm and i can see that it is bothering her but she needs to have it for another two weeks only, so it is not that bad.
I parked my car in front of a house.

"We are here."

She studied the house for a moment and than opened the doors and got out.

"Anything?" I asked her.

Maybe it will stimulate something in her mind. But she shook her head and got behind the car to get her stuff from trunk.

"Was this your house before or..?" She asked me with sad eyes, i see that she tries her best to remember at last something.
"No, we searched for it together, you really loved it from the first time you saw it." 

With her small bag in her hand she stood in front of a house studying it again. I took the rest of our things and carry it to the front entrance, clearing my throat when i passed by her to get her attention to follow me. 
The house interior didn't help ether. I guess it is still too early for her to remember anything. 

"You know what?" She placed her bag on the floor next to her and looked at me with serious face.
"What?" I wonder what did she come up with right now. 
"When you are talking to me about something that happened leave out something from that story."
"What do you mean?"
"You know, for example if you are going to tell me how we usually are spending night you are going to tell me almost everything but you are going to leave out one important stuff so if i ever remember i would remember that thing too, but if you tell me everything i will just think that i remember because you told me how did it happen. Does that make any sense?"

Her confused face is so adorable that i had to let out a little laugh. 

"It kind of makes sense, i guess.. But i get what you mean."

It was a silence for a second, both of us confused, looking at each other, until we burst laughing, for no reason. It is like we always do. I found my self laughing a lot more since she walked in my life.
We picked up our bags again and started walking upstairs with occasional giggle escaping here and there.
I led her to the our room, well from now on her room and opened doors. 

"So, this is where you are going to sleep, we decor...."

I noticed that she isn't listening to me but looking around the room with face expression that i am not sure i know what means.

"Izzy, you OK?"

She snapped her had towards me for a second, but again continue to look around room and bags next to us. 
But than she looked me with really happy expression.

"I think i remember something."