i feel like shit right now
i just hate my life and i want to cry, just because i have no friends here. nobody that i talk to every day, and im not super big with followers, and the people i just wish would comment or even vote on my storys, dont even realize im alive.
nobody cares about my feelings anymore, im just that one kid who will let you push her around because she's just fucking too broken to fight. i don't care who says they care about me because they don't, nobody checks up on me yo see how im doing, no matter how much i cry and pray for someone to give a shit about me, it just won't come. i don't even understand it.
what ever did i do wrong? why do i get treated like shit? all i do is treat people the way they treat me, which, according to them whenever we talk to an adult is "with respect"
so what did i do, to deserve this life of pain. you know what, half the pain these days is caused by myself, i just make it worse.
the pain i cause myself is pathetic.
im pathetic. it's my new favorite word to call myself besides stupid, dumb, fat, ugly and useless.
and the only reason im even writing this is because nobody looks at this book anyway, so if it weren't for this book, i would just keep it all inside and seal it with a fake smile.
im just so pathetic that ive been on my this app sense 12am and it now 4:11am just waiting for a notification from someone..
p a t h e t i c
p a t h e t i c
p a t h e t i c
