In Denial Innocence

Chapter 1

Alex's POV

"Mommy, why are we here? Bakit bah kasi tayo lumipat pa dito?" sabi ko habang nakatanaw sa tanawin mula sa aming veranda.

"Baby, dito kasi plano ni daddy na itayo yong bagong hotel project natin. Ayaw mo bah dito baby? Tingnan mo oh tanaw na tanaw natin ang dagat at ang lawak pa ng lupain."sabi ni Mommy Althea.

"I didn't say I didn't like it here, Mom. I just missed my playmates and pals outside."

"Sorry baby, but you should be aware that Daddy really loves us and couldn't bear to be apart from us."

"Yes, mum, I'm sorry; I completely understand. I simply couldn't help it. It's just that every time dad has a project eh lagi tayong isinasama but yeah because he loves us and of course we love him too." Sabi ko habang tila naluluha.
Despite his busy schedule, I am aware that my father wants us to constantly be together. It's just that Real estate investment is quite high demand right now. Bilib din naman ako sa daddy ko kasi hindi nya kami pinanapabayaan. Gustong-gusto nyang kasama kami kahit saan sya magpunta.

"Why baby? Bakit parang naiiyak ka? May masakit buh sayo? Nagtatampo ka ba baby?" Nag-aalalang tanong ni mom.

"Of course not mom! May naalala lang naman po ako." while displaying my fake smile. Ang totoo is I remembered my nightmare, a very disastrous one.

"Hmmmm. Is it something or someone?" My mom said while smiling. Hmmm I know that smile... She's up to something again.

"Mom! Stop it! You're teasing me again."  She used to tease me about having boyfriend. Gusto nya na talaga ako magkaroon ng boyfriend. Ewan ko buh. Kung yung ibang parents ayaw magkaroon ng boyfriend ang mga anak nila.. Pwes! ibahin nyo ang mommy ko.

"Are you still waiting for him?" Mom asked me. Nabigla naman ako sa tanong nya.

"Hmmm, sort of." I said, napaisip ako bigla. Though the topic was not really the one that I'm worried of, still I love it. I enjoyed this topic with my mom cause she knew about my puppy love secret.

"Mom, haven't you missed them? Our family was too close back then. Do you still have communication with them, mom?" I asked, out of curiousity.

"Yes baby, we do still have. We never failed to call every now and then, alam mo na nagkukumustahan din naman kami kahit papano. Actually your tita Riza is asking about you. Miss na rin nila tayo. Especially you. She's always inviting us to visit them in Canada, but you know your dad's sched naman diba." Mom said.

"Yes mom, I know. I wonder what he looks like now. It's been 7 years since they went to Canada. I missed him... I mean them." Trying to divert my mom's attention to me. She smiled widely as if hearing some interesting story from me.

"Baby, you're gorgeous; I know there are a lot of guys chasing you right now; why are you waiting for him? Baka nga may girlfriend na sya doon sa Canada. At kahit pa bumalik sila he won't see you nah kasi wala na tayo doon matagal nah." My mom said. She always insist to me to forget that someone in my past.

Me trying to clarify something: "But you said you still have contact with Tita and Tito, so they know where we are now, right?" I'm not sure what's making me uneasy. Maybe I'm just not used to this new environment yet.

"Baby, what if he already have his girl na nga? You know teenagers in this generation are very eager to have a relationship. Maybe it's time for you to let go of him. Enjoy your life baby, you can easily have friends naman diba?" Mom said while going to kitchen.

"Yes mom, I understand." I was left dumbfounded about my mom's words. She's right. What if he had a girl already. I don't know what to feel right now. I can't explain this kind of feeling. Is it possible to long and expect to those promises. Mom is right actually marami naman nagpaparamdam sa akin, di naman sa nagmamaganda ako noh. Pero meron din naman talaga, kaso nga lang laging friends lang yong gusto ko sa kanila. 

Yeah maybe it's time for me to forget him and stop expecting that he will keep his promise. We were young that time when we did that promise to each other. Maybe he's changed already. Or the worst is he may be forgotten those memories of us. 

Days had passed in this hot summer.
My days were just a routine, beach, reading, sleeping, talking with my parents. Still I never had a new friends, cause I am not yet ready. I'm trying to look something that would really make me feel happy. Though yun nga may mga nagkagusto nga sa akin pero in the end wala parin. Lagi ko nalang sinasabi na hindi pa ako ready. Syempre kinakausap ko naman sila noh, hindi na ako ganon ka snob gaya ng dati.

I don' t know what to feel right now. New semester is coming. I am going to a university. Yes, I enrolled my Senior High School in a university. Pero ewan ko bah! Feeling ko di pa ako ready eh. I don't feel so excited. New place, new faces and maybe new me. What am I supposed to do? I still don't know what strand should I get. I am very disturbed about my nightmare. I need to ask mom about these things.

"Mom, dad!" As i called my parents. Hmmm i don't think they're here. Oh! I forgot to bring my phone with me. Maybe they left me a message or a call.

I went to my room to look for my phone and i'm right, i have lot of missed calls and messages from dad and mom.

Daddy, "Where are you, baby? We apologize for leaving so soon, but we were in a rush. We are currently traveling to the airport."

Airport? 
How could they be there? 
Will they let me stay here alone? 
No way! 
I need to call dad.

....dialling dad's phone number....
(Ringing)

"Hello baby!" Mom answered dad's phone.

"Hello mom, where's dad?"

"Baby, daddy's driving, why???"

I cried and pleaded with my mother, "Mom, what have I done? Why are you leaving me alone. Did I do anything that failed you mom? If so, I'm very sorry. Mom come home, please...don't leave me here...I'm terrified." I'm now so terrified. My eyes are being flashed with all of my nightmares.

"We can't do that to you, baby. We're sorry, but we're not going to leave."

"Why are you heading to the airport right now, though?"

"Ngayon kasi darating yong old friends namin baby, kaya sasalubungin namin ng dad mo. They were so excited to meet us that's why they want us to see them in the airport. Darating dyan si manang Lisa baby, so don't be afraid nah, okey?? Our friends will be staying in the hotel near our house, so just a few hours from now we will be back, so don't you worry baby, we're so sorry for making you worried okey?"

"Yes mom, i am so sorry too for overreacting. Oh wait mom someone's knocking. Maybe it's nanay Lisa na po. Mom i'll hang it now. Bye mom i love you, dad i love you."

"Okey baby love you too." Says Mom and Dad.