Matilda's pov
Kate and Carla walked me to the café but I was not in the mood. I had my hands in my pockets as we walked across the street, I saw Amy and Summer, they both noticed me. Summer walked over to me with Amy close behind her.
"Hey Tillie,, How are you doing?" Summer asked with a small smile, I could sense all the sympathy but I knew she meant well.
"Abigail has asked if she can come see you; she misses you" Amy added.
"I'm managing I guess. I have to come back to school next week Their orders tell her I'll see her then" I mumbled not removing my hands from my pockets. Kate runs my back comfortingly as I sigh heavily.
"Right we better be off or we will miss the bus" summer exclaimed and I nodded. Carla and Kate took me into Roys, I decided just to have some toast and a tea, I felt eyes on me full of sympathy. I hated feeling like I did.
"Bluebell you know you won't feel like this forever" Carla told me softly but o knew she just trying to make me feel better; she didn't actually mean it.
"I still don't understand why he took the time to say goodbye to everyone other than Kate and I. I thought we were important to him too. I thought he would always be around to support me" I said in almost a whisper.
"Aidan loved you, both of you. He spoke non-stop about you Bluebell, sometimes it got to the point I had to tell him to shut up, he would have done anything to protect you both. Never forget that" Carla smiled as she placed her hand on mine.
"He promised he'd never leave me, relapse after relapse he was here for me. Holding my hand and telling me I was going to pull through, when I overdosed he stayed with me. I was going to be moving in with him when Dad and Jenny moved away, i thought everything was going to be fine, I hadn't felt seriously depressed in months,, I hadn't self harmed in 67 days and I was proud of myself. Aidan was encouraging me And whenever I had the erge to cut he would stop me, distract me, I don't know how I'm going to say goodbye tomorrow" I explained to my older sisters who both nodded.
"We understand now, please just keep talking to us. Whenever you feel like this we could help you. You are not alone Matilda. Never alone" Kate smiled across the table to me
"Never alone" two words which echoed in my ears, I wonder if Aidan knew he was never alone, it would be a question that is never answered; not in this life time anyway.
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An Emotional Roller-coaster (Coronation Street)
FanfictionMatilda Connor is the youngest Connor, she suffers with depression and her done since she was 13. She was always close to her brother and her sister and they helped her through the relapse after relapse but when Aidan committed suicide her whole wor...
