madison high

todays the day

i wake up forgetting that josh came into my room cause he had a bad dream last night , about to get up when his lands on my waist pulling me closer to him , so i just sit there enjoying this moment , i love it . i love every moment im with him . he makes me happier than i really am , i dont even know what i would do without him in my life . hes like my everything . my bestfriend , my cru- .. my mood changes as i remeber that i havent told him yet , i just dont get it , what am i so affraid of ? i tell him everything . am i affraid that it will ruin our friendship ? am i affraid that he wont feel the same way back ? am i affraid that hell think of me differently ? ehh its probably all .. i just dont get it , i mean hes gonna end up knowing sooner or latter , i just dont know whennn . probably latter , like super latter , like a couple months , maybe years . i just dont wanna mess shit up , like i do everything else in this world of mine .

i hear a knock at the door , and the fact that i dont wanna talk to anyone , i close my eyes , rap my arm around him , and pretend im sleeping . ha or maybe i just wanted to lay here in his arms . ahh this feels perfecttt . "hey lyn-" my mom stopped in mid sentence , "woah woah woah .. what are you guys doing ?! get up . wake up . now !" she practically yells at us . "what do you want mother ?" i mumble . "i want you to get up and stop messing around with him ! hes supposed to be your best friend ! not your boyfriend !" she contenues to yell . "mother hes not my boyfriend , hes my bestfriend , he came in here to sleep cause he mad a bad dream , chill the fuck out" i calmly say to her while i wake josh up . "well he couldve slept on the floor . i dont want you screwing around with him , or any other dude , your only 14 !" she says . "okay , and your point is ? what i shouldnt be screwing around ? im not !! and why would i make him sleep on the fucking floor ???" i say laughing .

"whats going on?" josh says looking cute af , messy hair , tired voice , confused expresion . "my mom thinks somethings going on between us because the tickling and now sleeping together" i explain , as he starts to laugh . "mom just get out , im going to change" i say . "uhmmm josh come on . you think he can stay here and watch you get undressed ? no" my mom says . josh starts to stand , as i put my hand down to block him from leaving accidentally touching his dick , making it more awkward than it already was . "ill change in the bathroom" i anoyingly say to my mother . and she finally leaves . i go into my bathroom taking a pair of bra and panties , to go shower , i get out and put on my blue bra and pink panties and walk out into my room , and go to the closet "oh yah sorry for waking you up to all of that , and for accidentally touching your dick" "haha its okay" josh says to me .. i walk over to him with 5 shirts in my hand .. "which one should i wear today ?" i ask not knowing what to wear . "uhmmm wear the one with mickey mouse on it ." . "okay . shorts of jeans ?" i ask . "shorts" . so i put on my outfit , and walk into the bathroom to do my make-up and hair while hes taking a shower . i deside to keep my hair down today , "wanna go for a walk when i get out?" he askes over the watter , "yah , sounds good to me" .

after he got ready we went outside and took a walk around the neighborhood , on our way i seen someone , i knew i seen her somewhere , but who was it ? thays right , victoria . "heey ! victoria ? its me , from science class ." i say . "hey girl . whats up ? whos that ? your boyfriend ? oo lala" she says and i chuckle "nah just my bestfriend , his names josh" i smile at the thought of his name . "mhmm not for long" she says and me and josh just laugh . after we talk for a while she says "well i gotta go , see ya at school"

when we finally get home i think , its finally time , time to tell him .. we walk upstairs and then i look out the widow , "wow its supper pretty out there" i say . "yah it is" he says . me as the curious one , i say "we should go on the roof and look up at the stars" . "sounds good to me" he says . so he opens the window , and i start to put one foot out and i hit my head on the wall , "ouch" i say , "let me help you" he says . he grabs my waist and helps me out , god i feel so safe in his arms . i sit down , and grab his hand to help him out , and then we both lay down and look up at the stars , "lynsey" he say pointing up at one of the stars , "what ??" i say confused . "i named that star after you , her name is now , lynsey" he explains . "awwh fine , then that one is josh" i say pointing up at a star . i break the silence of after like 5 minutes saying "hey josh , i was thinking , that well .. i dont want anything to be different at all , but i kinda need to tell you something .. uhh ...i like you , a l o t ....."