Night Thinker (Poetry)

m i s s

I miss you, every single night.
But that night,
I decided to chat you
again.

I didn't mean to bug you
Or annoy you.
But you never say that i disturb you
So i keep it going.

You just say that,
We could chat another time
You never really send me away,
But you never say to stay either.

I hate you, because you knew i love you
But you keep making me
Confused.

I miss your silly jokes,
I miss your annoying voice,
Your skin, your hair,
Even your ugly face.

But i wonder,
Do you even miss me out there?
Or all you do is drunk?

Just try not to hurt yourself too much,
Like last time i see your blue hands.
I wish you will heal and find happiness,
Even it means staying away from me.

Just,
Stay alive will you?
Because i love you,
I always will.
And i always put you in prayer every night.

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Thank you for reading this.
I really appreciate it,
axelious b.