Chester's death made everything worse. I loved his music and damn. He was such a good human being. I miss him every day and also every Thursday is a bad day since he's gone. I love you, Chester. And I'm doing everything possible to make you proud but what can I say, I fail every second, minute, hour and day. I'm such a failure and it makes me sad to know that you wouldn't be proud of me up there in heaven. I keep remembering your lyrics whenever I feel really hurt and it kind of helps. But just for a few moments. I won't forget you. Ever.
